Sunday, December 15, 2013
Something Simply Weird
There's this poster on IMDb. She is starting to make suggestions to me, making topics on the Soapbox. I think Ellen DeGeneres told her to do that. I think she was thinking how I posted her show was what my life was being taken by and I wanted to be famous myself and meet some people, like anyone including supposedly respectable people. Normally, I'm onto something, but I'm onto her now. I also have money problems. My parents probably don't think I deserve some things. This person seems to be annoying me racially like it's just okay, an older poster. The other older posters aren't there to keep her in check.
Problem
My mom keeps on like ruining something big in my life these days. They act like they have to do something bad to me all the time to test me. Well, if everyone did that, I'd do something about it, but most people dare not accept that.
For example, my mom made my face feel messed up. I wonder if a long time ago, everyone had something coming to them like this. I feel a bit uncomfortable. You know, my dad just got back from seeing his mom. I was upset at me mom at the door to test me and was like you threw away my facial cleanser, and it's a big deal for me to go out and use my money and get more. What should I say? I was not feeling well, and she was being mean.
For example, my mom made my face feel messed up. I wonder if a long time ago, everyone had something coming to them like this. I feel a bit uncomfortable. You know, my dad just got back from seeing his mom. I was upset at me mom at the door to test me and was like you threw away my facial cleanser, and it's a big deal for me to go out and use my money and get more. What should I say? I was not feeling well, and she was being mean.
In Summary
Latinos, Middle Easterns, etc. all strive to be like Northern Europeans, so don't stop the Asians by saying they have to do all the things you do because you are already using an eraser on them. You want Asians to be stuck. What about the Negroids|blacks??
Most Attractive, Choice Genes
The Hispanics were operation keep Christina from being more white, but Christina is 1/2 white and they are not Northern European. So Christina is already not acting Mongoloid, she is going for Caucasoid, whatever North European is.
I'm sure there are things @ any race that may seem overly interesting, including Asians. It is hard for me to believe a Middle Easterner has a flat face. I need to see more. They must be Caucasian. They don't look like an Asian, who is also probably a lot of the Native American indians. So, what is it, there are indians that did not disappear who have European skulls having migrated from Europe, so are Caucasian and not Mongoloid? Is that the kind with long noses? Why do Eskimos like to look Korean so much? Do some have long noses up there somewhere? Why are they so dark, then? Not enough comfort?
I'm sure there are things @ any race that may seem overly interesting, including Asians. It is hard for me to believe a Middle Easterner has a flat face. I need to see more. They must be Caucasian. They don't look like an Asian, who is also probably a lot of the Native American indians. So, what is it, there are indians that did not disappear who have European skulls having migrated from Europe, so are Caucasian and not Mongoloid? Is that the kind with long noses? Why do Eskimos like to look Korean so much? Do some have long noses up there somewhere? Why are they so dark, then? Not enough comfort?
Getting Away With Sassiness Every Time Getting Away With Sassiness Every Time
Why do people get away with things I don't even do? I'm thinking of all the hints I have that people I know have seen presentations on the difference of skull shapes.. I thought hm I think Helena Bonham Carter has seen this because of something.. and I imagined her as usual saying, "Aw, well, it was some thing, whatever." Well, I haven't been doing things like that, commenting that way, yet I'm in trouble for waking up each day and intending to be my bright and beautiful self, while the rest of Orlando wakes up groggy and pulled along with positivity.
More on My Mind
Tim Burton and I guess Johnny Depp think they can be mean to me cuz I kept blaming them for ruining the whole world. I see Tim Burton thinks he said something by using an Asian in some thing he did. He probably was being nice to Asians, but if it ends up being because of me I'll be even more mad I think, if that's possible. That's how I lost a boyfriend..
Aw..
I got mad because Ellen found out me at home and like just sorta seemed to see it as just leaving it but really exerting a simply I found you out sorta attitude. That's not very nice, and that's not the whole story. I was told I complained a lot, but that was never right, see, I was just talking, when I still lived in Florida without having moved away. I did say I didn't like the New Orleans area, just liked Florida, Pennsylvania.. probably NYC. However, after living there, what came to me was I didn't need NYC. I thought of it on my own. What did you so condescendingly, you people, "find out" about me? If I got really mad, I would imagine if I let go I'd imagine like a feeling of hitting someone. Why pick on me like that when I didn't start it? So, I decided to change and imagined myself shouting to go away.. Maybe, Ellen is jealous about my mom. I just got that idea. I figured that she wouldn't like me, to begin with. My parents are not the same age, so I mean I kinda dislike the traits I had to keep of my dad's age because it seemed tacky and with my mom it's race, she's Chinese and tanned.
Dream
I remember at the end I was drawing the last scene, there was a white unicorn next to a pretty girl. I WAs outlining the snout. It was white. I wanted to leave and m.. in the dream. It was too serious and I wasn't doing anything.
Problem
People are acting strange @ Nell Burton, like we have to bow down to her, all of a sudden. I'm not used to doing that.
I have an idea.
Why doesn't my mom tell me why she made her right thumbnail shorter, the pink part, significantly? I know about Tim Burton having a daughter named Nell, and so you know she was probably named after her mom Helena. I found people became sensitive about their nails. Something happened to mine when left at a mental clin'c. I also know her nails were kinda big and she used to have a long torso so seemed bigger than me, content, though I don't know what she was doing at all in that mark. I kinda am praying her legs get longer. I don't know what she lacks, probably friends. She said she is returning to Indonesia when she graduates. So, I'm happy about that. I don't care if her nails are more motherly to me because they're big, but I saw her looking at it and getting stimulated. Someone talked to her a long time somewhere, too, don't think I did much. Some lady was testing me @ Ellen DeGeneres supposedly being mean. I don't like this. It was 1 of those 1940s guys. What was wrong with -that lady-? Ellen hides what she does, so I never know what she's doing. She's not in my life other than this constant support I don't know why she gives to me like this, indirectly and a bit strangely not to her liking, .. I mean it's like she's on another planet how she thinks. I just wanted to tell it in an interesting way, cuz I mean I dunno I forget again, probably tired. Like, the things I do, like she might help younger kids but wouldn't help me, it seems.
Why are..
..some people annoyed by nice people? I just got the message I was *** for wanting to be friends with someone really weird, who I thought was playing around with me.
Hm, also acted like I wasn't nice and I should be.. ^messed up^
Hm, also acted like I wasn't nice and I should be.. ^messed up^
How Blacks vs. Asians Resemble Caucasians and Mongoloids
I know Asians used to not be called Mongoloids. Mongoloids don't want to be Asian, like indians.
Blacks have that French look I'd say, the girls. Smart, light, thin black guys who are overly into the program you might say but perfect how they are.. I dunno that seems French, too.
Blacks have that French look I'd say, the girls. Smart, light, thin black guys who are overly into the program you might say but perfect how they are.. I dunno that seems French, too.
Being Shy @ Skin
The world identifies dark hair and light skin as the most modest pair of features. Middle Eastern women now cover themselves from the sun, and Hispanics bask in it.
Hispanics and Mongoloids (and Asians)
Hispanics think that dark hair is what makes them more like Mongoloids, along with tan skin. All I could say is maybe the dark hair. White skin is considered less racist, like black hair. Tanned skin is colored and stimulated. The Middle Easterners always respected this.
Taking Back "What I Did"
Well, I find some things funny, but I guess some people don't .. when mad I may forget, I may mean something, but I would take it back. I do believe it was wrong what happened. I just came up as a good person and that didn't cut it with Ellen DeGeneres.
IMDb - The Soapbox
Getting Black or Blonde Hair
What do you think of minorities and like the English girls with dark hair? They think it's important to be black.
Why do black people say go ahead and be white and then they find a minority and say don't be?
What do you think of minorities and like the English girls with dark hair? They think it's important to be black.
Why do black people say go ahead and be white and then they find a minority and say don't be?
IMDb - Politics
What do you think of being mixed with Native American or some Asian and being excluded from what white people are sorta friendily helped along with? People think that they aren't living this way, but they are and it hurts other white people just the same. I think everyone has it ingrained in their head that we have to be nice and understanding to African Americans, who seem shy around normal people. You all are just concerned with how 1 Asian treats another and don't care about people with both white and Asian or Native American blood fitting in and not being stopped and sorta pushed around racially without fully realizing it at the time.. Some of the mixed people of this world just look white and even people who are all Near Eastern, same with fullblood Jews.. Why would you stop someone who is successful at what they are set out to do? I don't mean whoever is reading this but who this should be said to. Isn't this kinda obvious and unspoken so far? I've heard on TV more than once that there's only 2 or 3 races, white, black, and Asian.. and they don't know where to put Middle Eastern|indian.
Same Things
I heard Karen Carpenter got off her diet but still died. That kinda happened to me..
I have lots in common with her. My dad was in her class year. Younger, however..
I have lots in common with her. My dad was in her class year. Younger, however..
Special Education
I think people like Karen Carpenter and Tim Burton are not right, they are messed up and have to get out what everyone knows. I am not insulting but concerned.
Dark-Haired French
What do you think of Europeans with dark hair who look French as opposed to supposedly black people who act French and like the girls with the coarse hair?
Following Instructions
or just living. I feel I've done some things I'm supposed to but am unaccepted and can't seem to live an exciting life. I might have future goals, though, and they take a long time. I am talking about race.
Youth Playing With People Like Toys
You can't let the youth today decide what happens to people of other races like they're toys. They think it would fit like a salute to the Nazis to say a mixed person can just be with the race that is not of their choice just to be strict on someone to tease them.. which is wrong in and of itself, both intent and actual doing. I mean if you think @ the situation.
Poked At
I get poked at for trying to be comfortable in my own home. Will I ever be treated like an innocent man? All I want is to help people in unbelievable situations. Well, I wanna be a singer and ballerina. Classical singer, too..
Old Text Box
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~ 25% Irish
~ 10% German
~ 10% French
~ 5% Dutch
•½ Chinese-Indonesian (6-700 yrs + ruled by the Dutch ~4-500 yrs?)
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•Pennsylvanian + New Yorker
•from SE-NE-SE-NE FL + New Orleans area + Central FL
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•5'1"
•~160 pounds
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•Brunette - Curly|Wavy
•Hazel Eyes
•White Skin
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•Pennsylvanian + New Yorker
•from SE-NE-SE-NE FL + New Orleans area + Central FL
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•5'1"
•~160 pounds
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•Brunette - Curly|Wavy
•Hazel Eyes
•White Skin
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TV
"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" was nice. The African-American from New Orleans seemed to have the culture down but only excluding Asians.
The boy with the speech problem was so cute, was born with a brain problem. I guess we'll eat away at what others thought they'd get, even if some of us can't have kids.. :(* Let's give Ellen a daughter! She needs 1! She can have 1! What guy? It'd be nice if she had the daughter when I wish I had a little sister. She can still be like a mom to you. I realize her daughter will be younger. I guess I'm saying this for attention, so I mean it's for her, though. So, that boy goes around in a hat and suit and tye. So cute! What else? The Asian was cute, he talked totally American and only had like his personality looks as Asian.
The boy with the speech problem was so cute, was born with a brain problem. I guess we'll eat away at what others thought they'd get, even if some of us can't have kids.. :(* Let's give Ellen a daughter! She needs 1! She can have 1! What guy? It'd be nice if she had the daughter when I wish I had a little sister. She can still be like a mom to you. I realize her daughter will be younger. I guess I'm saying this for attention, so I mean it's for her, though. So, that boy goes around in a hat and suit and tye. So cute! What else? The Asian was cute, he talked totally American and only had like his personality looks as Asian.
"Where am I?"
You know you're safe if you're in on at least musical theater and hopefully classical singing. You may not see it, but 1 day you will and you will believe it.
Saturday, December 14, 2013
More on Death
Growing up, I had to extinguish the constant uncomfortable feelings of assimilating oneself to Jesus, I came home in PreK thinking I'd die on the cross like Jesus.
If I had to rank ladies @ my dad's age..
1- Karen Carpenter (deceased, a little older)
2- Sharon Osbourne
3- Siw Inger
4- Frenchie from Grease
5- Olivia Newton-John (older..)
2- Sharon Osbourne
3- Siw Inger
4- Frenchie from Grease
5- Olivia Newton-John (older..)
My C.D. 3I
..I'm gonna record
13 Songs
Folk
1- The Ash Grove - Welsh
2- Simple Gifts - American
3- O Waly Waly - Irish
Classical|Opera (5 Songs)
4 - Fairest Isle
5 - I Attempt From Love's Sickness
6 - Die Forelle
7 - Gretchen Am Spinnrade
8 - Pres des Remparts de Seville - Carmen
Musical Theater
9 - Be Happy - The Little Prince
10 - Wouldn't it be Lovely - My Fair Lady
Pop
11 - The Tide is High https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/die-zeit-ist-reif-karaoke/id54626710 2?i=546267268
12 - Close to You
Movies
13 - Golden Afternoon - Alice in Wonderland (Original Disney Animation)
13 Songs
Folk
1- The Ash Grove - Welsh
2- Simple Gifts - American
3- O Waly Waly - Irish
Classical|Opera (5 Songs)
4 - Fairest Isle
5 - I Attempt From Love's Sickness
6 - Die Forelle
7 - Gretchen Am Spinnrade
8 - Pres des Remparts de Seville - Carmen
Musical Theater
9 - Be Happy - The Little Prince
10 - Wouldn't it be Lovely - My Fair Lady
Pop
11 - The Tide is High https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/die-zeit-ist-reif-karaoke/id54626710 2?i=546267268
12 - Close to You
Movies
13 - Golden Afternoon - Alice in Wonderland (Original Disney Animation)
So
What does Ellen think I need to fix @ how I look, or think in terms how would I need to look? I'm sorry you see my bristly hair. I don't wanna look like mucus.
Why do
people sort me as someone who's not cool like a Late Boomer? Like I'm a dork that needs to be opened up?
Problem
These experimenters won't be quiet. I was into Karen Carpenter, and I usually am into younger women, and now they are saying it's time for my aunt..
Problem
I'm tired of people treating me like an emotional + intellectual baby, sometimes. Sometimes, you just gotta lash out. I don't like speaking in code like they do, neither, it's not fun nor worth it.. :/
Hurt
My stomach area is still hurting from that person. Also, from dropping my food I feel full. I don't see why anyone would think this is here to teach me a lesson. I just had a few strawberries earlier then went to sleep.
Singing
Why do both Charlotte Church and Jackie Evancho sing so old and are sometimes so forward @ their singing? Most people hopefully aren't, mainly young singers. Don't you just sing and wait for people to judge you? I don't get told I'll make it, but people tell me I have a voice like an angel, same with Charlotte Church, hmph, Jackie Evancho is in the money. I do feel that people like them are trying to say "I'm not better" but we're essentially just different.
Message From Karen
I was singing "Wouldn't It Be Lovely" and at the end something, a sound, popped out in me. It was louder, too. It was like a little sack of string wrapped around something.
So..
..why keep making fun of me for not being a teen? I'm still a person. I'm an adult like you.
What's all the fuss, then?..
What's all the fuss, then?..
Well
Ellen, I've had people come up to me wanting to know @ their daughters and not me. Like, I'm not cool. I don't mean you should just give up. I thought things were supposed to work out. I think it's too late for me, and I think no one really finds that befitting to me. I will not give up anything to look like a teen.. :/ ..but I do wear junior clothes.
Let's reincantate people bringing them up from the dead.
1 - Audrey Hepburn
2 - Karen Carpenter (1949)
I'm serious.. Let's do it 1 by 1. These 2 people didn't die a death of violence. Sad to say, I've commited to this earth and do not know if before I would have to die would I solve anything, but it does work out. Well, they are so chased after may they rest in peace, these people. You know fasting makes you feel more. I don't know @ Audrey Hepburn. I think she was sad she didn't look as young as she aged. She was so skinny, too! I know if you don't eat you die! Like, if you lead an active life and are pushed, you'd just die! I told you I sensed magic while at school.. like the other world, but it didn't open up! At least, we are in touch with what it means to have all of who's existed having existed. We should look for things. People are not meant to die. I think science tells us this. I've heard of it. We have to evolve. I always feel this sense of safety myself, but sometimes I worry and sometimes worry @ others. I don't believe we are just science. I don't know why we're just made of atoms. Let's create a Karen Carpenter and from the novel "The Phantom of the Opera," with its many wonderful versions, Christine Daee. I heard the phantom was real. I'm into ghosts, too, and watch Ghost Adventures. It's something to think about on the side.
2 - Karen Carpenter (1949)
I'm serious.. Let's do it 1 by 1. These 2 people didn't die a death of violence. Sad to say, I've commited to this earth and do not know if before I would have to die would I solve anything, but it does work out. Well, they are so chased after may they rest in peace, these people. You know fasting makes you feel more. I don't know @ Audrey Hepburn. I think she was sad she didn't look as young as she aged. She was so skinny, too! I know if you don't eat you die! Like, if you lead an active life and are pushed, you'd just die! I told you I sensed magic while at school.. like the other world, but it didn't open up! At least, we are in touch with what it means to have all of who's existed having existed. We should look for things. People are not meant to die. I think science tells us this. I've heard of it. We have to evolve. I always feel this sense of safety myself, but sometimes I worry and sometimes worry @ others. I don't believe we are just science. I don't know why we're just made of atoms. Let's create a Karen Carpenter and from the novel "The Phantom of the Opera," with its many wonderful versions, Christine Daee. I heard the phantom was real. I'm into ghosts, too, and watch Ghost Adventures. It's something to think about on the side.
TV
I just watched Thursday's "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." That younger girl than me by just a few months was so cute. She's born in August. I liked seeing her hug Ellen at the end. She does singing like Bella, too, not just acting. I was set to be a performer. Since high school, so I'm not too late. I see all these other people made it, where I was very interesting.
It was rather cute, they stood being cozy.. Must be weird with someone like Ellen, to be on like that, I mean it's not like you'll see her at the Oscars in the audience. I'm glad she had such a good experience for herself.
I was gonna go watch "Ellen" but went back, retreated to my computer.
I really liked when the lady fell off dancing.
It was rather cute, they stood being cozy.. Must be weird with someone like Ellen, to be on like that, I mean it's not like you'll see her at the Oscars in the audience. I'm glad she had such a good experience for herself.
I was gonna go watch "Ellen" but went back, retreated to my computer.
I really liked when the lady fell off dancing.
YouTube Comment
link
You are a very good person like I was. I think if I compared ourselves, I'd say that you were a bit uptight, though overall it's fine.. I like some of what you learned better than what I did.
You are a very good person like I was. I think if I compared ourselves, I'd say that you were a bit uptight, though overall it's fine.. I like some of what you learned better than what I did.
Question
What do you think @ Ellen DeGeneres being trapped by her show and things?
She seems to want to keep track of her fans. I am trying to improve my life, but she seems to think we want to do it to give her more to think about. I'd like to change that. I believe in magic, and I wish the people talking to me would be talking @ that. I used to believe I am either older or younger and that we are all equals souls in age. We are all human children looking for our parents in heaven. We are all peers, girls and boys, and we experience love and probably even age difference.
She seems to want to keep track of her fans. I am trying to improve my life, but she seems to think we want to do it to give her more to think about. I'd like to change that. I believe in magic, and I wish the people talking to me would be talking @ that. I used to believe I am either older or younger and that we are all equals souls in age. We are all human children looking for our parents in heaven. We are all peers, girls and boys, and we experience love and probably even age difference.
Happy @ Yourself
Do you think it's racial hatred to tell a person your race is better? What if it's the same color?
Well, I'd like to know, too..
Well, I'd like to know, too..
Friday, December 13, 2013
A Bit Upset
My mom was standing by me in an annoyingly and rejectedly affectionate way after getting my psychiatrist to bump my medicine intake.. and I was closing something and it just ended up spilling, the way she was moving! All tacky! I am not my parents!! And I got fat cuz I couldn't have more of what I cooked and I'm onto my next recipe. I didn't like the 1st, but it did well for me. The next thing isn't as healthy.
Kids With Either Older or Much Younger Parents
If my world was shit for the devilish kids of older parents who don't even appreciate them, then is it really my turn, seeing all that you gave these young kids and how much you grant wishes of older kids whatever it is they have been able to accomplish? I do care, but it seems older kids did not accept me in my age compared to them as they were tamed to do as time came for them to follow and they've already had their own kids. I was listening to my favorites from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and you'll notice the bells in the song for Veruca. It was a bit tacky to me, but it sorta tells the whole story. That age and their "young" parents from Late Boom can be described as attractive in a way that makes them ^feel good^ whereas I assume I ^feel worse^. I will not group my self with kids with the older parents.
Thursday, December 12, 2013
Cramps
I also have female cramps from that person who made it hard or weird to poo, and it feels like an unhealthy touch. It's a forward feeling.
Interesting?
My mom upset me. I was just wiggling outta another secret message from my dad. She seemed to shun me like I was my dad.
Need to Exercise
Just got my female thing and feel like resting, feel kinda irritated emotionally. Towels drying..
These workout DVDs are pretty strenuous. I took a walk just now, too, for like an hour or more. I wanted that drink.
I'm guessing a little later I might to an easier exercise.
These workout DVDs are pretty strenuous. I took a walk just now, too, for like an hour or more. I wanted that drink.
I'm guessing a little later I might to an easier exercise.
Playing With Me
People around me can feel through magic to irritate me with their touch. Someone messed with my ability to poo okay.
Back
I went for a walk and got a drink. I might go lie down, don't have anything to listen to, like maybe Christmas radio, though. Or I might "play on -my- computer.."
Just Watched
Renee Fleming singing "I Want an Old-Fashioned Christmas" and an interview @ the arts. It was such an entertaining singing! She's such a nice singer!
What you think when you see her..
..Ellen, just someone who's older or someone old enough that you wanna call mommy on? I haven't called mommy on anyone. It's funny cuz there's a girl a year older than my dad who died from fasting too much in the end..
Oh, and me, I think mommy is born in 1940? That makes sense. I'm probably not really old enough. The funny thing is that doesn't include transes of ***.
Oh, and me, I think mommy is born in 1940? That makes sense. I'm probably not really old enough. The funny thing is that doesn't include transes of ***.
Problem
So, I did what I was supposed to and it ^violently^ goes to someone else. I am having problems m..!
I mean @ my not being a true blood Southerner from parents. Fine, then let me talk to your parents. They were nice to me.
I mean @ my not being a true blood Southerner from parents. Fine, then let me talk to your parents. They were nice to me.
What I Think
If you violently want Ellen and violently hate me, you're wrong cuz it was meant to be and I do want her to meet other people to a great degree and me I mean I don't even have to know her the most, don't know if I would. I probably get to think @ her more. A lot of people think she's Jewish and then maybe they're better but really like her. I just mean Ellen has a better figure, and some people are stupid enough to think well black people have a more typical human figure. What figure do you want?? See, I caught ya! You always like the people with the basic figures most ***ually. Maybe, people with atypical figures are different.
Upset and M..
I know you all in general good kids with good desires as well as most others do not get told your fat Mamma is Ellen DeGeneres to you. You all are just doing this for Nell Burton! Saying I did something wrong to her online! I don't belive the only people are the Lord God the Father the Almighty, Jesus Christ, Our Savior, and the Holy Spirit of God.
For stupid questions, yes, in some ways Ellen DeGeneres can resemble our parents but not in all. She isn't us, after all..
I just took my 2nd ever anger pill and I feel so angry I wanna chop something up, I think I just chopped up myselfin my mind. That might be why people practice self-harm, parents being too ***ual yet uninteresting.
For stupid questions, yes, in some ways Ellen DeGeneres can resemble our parents but not in all. She isn't us, after all..
I just took my 2nd ever anger pill and I feel so angry I wanna chop something up, I think I just chopped up myselfin my mind. That might be why people practice self-harm, parents being too ***ual yet uninteresting.
In the Car
My mom was at me and I was talking @ singers I guess and guess I should say to those who know what I said that I feel insulted as a singer but still think you're all beautiful people who sing with the angelic voice. Your skills are all the product of hard work overtime, and I commend you for your accomplishment in life and hope that you all become very happy.
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