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Should she..

..have tried to sustain her life or focus on performance after performance of not eating enough nutrition?  Karen Carpenter.

Also, why does she seem so over kids?  She died to never meet that many.  Will she be resurrected when the sophomores this year turn 16??  Do tell.

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Do you think Karen Carpenter was not mature enough to get married?  My dad is born in 1950 and didn't meet my mom as a Chinese pen pal until he was 32.  Same thing, I'd wager.  I was born when he was 35.

Also, think about the way she said "hanging around" in "Rainy Days and Mondays."  She said "nothing to do" sarcastically like she knew she could die.  If you heard her sing at Carnegie Hall, it sounds in the end like she wasn't gonna die, but she was just getting away with it.

Also, as to her having kids, she made it sound like everything would go to her future son or whatever she imagined it be like having a daughter.  Like, she didn't care about other people if they were younger.  Anyway, she acted like she had to make her son not be as glamorous you might say so people wouldn't pick on them.  I can see how she seemed sarcastic that she'd not really like her husband as much as others.  I could just say my dad is assimilated into the same class year as her and therefore I am more like her daughter.  That would work for me.  So, why would she spend more time with her own kids?  I don't mean to say I wish I grew up as her daughter.  I just mean that sometimes people without kids are more open.  At the moment, I don't plan to seek out marriage.  I'm 27.

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Found Out

I was so upset last night that a Soapboxer was mean to me trying to make me feel bad about what I said @ Ellen .. that I didn't wanna have to watch her show each day not sure what her day really means .. and you get the picture, the picture I hope.

Something sad @ that is I never really pictured anything like it so much but year like I said.

I applied for this.

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What's the big deal, though?

Your thoughts are like a straight record?  Etc..

Sorry @

comments wondering @ Sarah Brightman.  Well, I hope she is having a good break..

Measurements

Height: 5'3"
Weight: 158.2
Waist: 31.5"

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Remember when..

..The Phantom of the Opera was a big deal?

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Religious Personality Types

(1) Devouted Lamb - Always pleasant and celestial.
(2) Dangerous Devil - You are always onto people telling them they need to be punished.
(3) Messenger Dove - You let people know what's going on and what's not and always find a way to be safe afterwards.
(4) Innocent Child - To you life is important and you intend to grow into a perfect adult like Jesus and keep track of how you act like a saint.
(5) Divine Redeemer - You are a saint and live a life serving Christ and others.

Traits

(1) Shy
(2) Bossy or In Charge

(1) Concerned With Worldly Things
(2) Concerned With the Bible

(1) Believe in Human Consciousness
(2) Believe in Stupidity, That Humans Don't Care @ Human Life

(1) Believe in Having Fun
(2) Believe That Fun Was Never Meant to Come

I am a Devouted Lamb and a 2111.

I don't like wearing

shirts all of 1 color.

Some books..

..would make a good sentence in a blog post.

Would..

..Karen Carpenter make a good mom?  She'd make a good big sister.  Or role model.

What Happened.

.I thought a joke @ "Ginny's Daughter" and my mom and I went somewhere.  She was mean the whole time and held in that she thought I misbehaved and instead planned trips for Christmas and this weekend that were not choice picks in this light..  My parents need to stop being in my life because before we moved to Orlando they weren't.  I don't mean altogether literally, but they are really repulsive in how they treat me.

Ghost

I woke up really upset and I usually see clear ripples, but this time it was a big black ripple that went past my legs, and a few other things.

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Heard a Voice

I think it was a little voice of Karen Carpenter, by the garage door.  I was laying on my sofa.

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Ghosts

I had some chocolate from my brother with fruit and nuts, dark, and in the shower I saw 2 swirling little black things, also saw a ghost leave like this up north.

Question

Why has everyone been both so goody 2 shoes but mean to me since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory?  People gave me my personal space before.  See, it's not right in their heart, IT'S NOT!

Dream 2

I think it was more @ people who are like 21 kid based.

I took off my headphones, and it sounded like Karen from afar.

Also, I stared at a blinking clock which seemed to stand still @ 10:00.

Like My Mother

I was listening to me sing, and it felt like a series of noises and it didn't damage my hearing.

Woke Up

To use the bathroom.

So, in this dream, I think it was kinda creepy and like other worldly, not like Halloween themed, though.  I think there were Carpenters as I thought there were a herd .. like filing outta life.  Supposedly, we were looking for the main 1, in the form of the brother, like wrapped up as a mummy or maybe not, maybe boxed for something like there was otherwise cancer treatment.  I was so anxioux @ never being talked to by the main 1 before even they left or died.

The Perfect Family

There was a dude named Brian and a lady named Kerrie.  They had a son named Eiffel and a younger daughter named Francie.  They were English and Russian but lived in central California.

The Family's Portrait
Brian had light brown hair and blue eyes and stood in back with his wife.  The son was a sportin' American.  He had light brown hair and round, blue eyes.  The young girl was with her mother, and she had .. oh, the mother was an attractive brunette..  The daughter had brown or green eyes (like I know about) and her hair was black or brown with a flash of light in it.

So, Francie had a friend she adored so much named Chloe.  She was so happy to get a chance to hang.

Francie had another friend named Mammie, and they were like best friends.

Francie also babysitted a girl named Jackie.

1 day, Jackie fainted in Francie's lap, and she said oh somebody help!  Help she got.  Mamma picked her up comfortably and took her home.

There was a witch in town named Christina.  She had curly black hair and brown eyes with some green in them.  A guy named Pirelli was there, and the witch was already onto him.  They exchanged gestures and revolved around and faced the crowd.  She spoke of what lay beyond and offered her powers.

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Sarah Brightman - as sweet as ever, hope for all the best for her, anyone else have a whim to wanna do something for her now?

If it's not right..

..for me to just talk @ what I don't want to talk @, what if you picked someone for something and it was all @ their shit?  Like m.. them.

It seems..

..to be more about her.

Well

I just think suicide is bad.

It seems selfish..

To want to meet Karen Carpenter.  I mean, what if she died for a reason that was martyrlike, fearless as a Methodist?

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I heard rapping from a place in the ceiling in a corner of machines in the garage, it seemed a bit louder|apparent.  This was before, when I woke up before already and didn't say so.

no no no

I'm not gonna live to gape at the death of a suicidal.

so

everyone wanted her dead?

o, bc they won't talk @ it

do you think

she regrets it, like at all?

lonely

studying Karen Carpenter bc she killed herself, she's been planning this fetish a long time, no offense

I'm getting the jist..

..though I wanted to forget @ it, Karen Carpenter's death still means something.

I guess it's tonight.

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Renee Fleming

2nd Master Class +

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I know what it's about.  The 80s.

Check me out.

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So Sad

The dogs on TV that have been mistreated.

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I just bought

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TV

I saw "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" earlier this morning and thought it was so cool to see all those ladies! Martha Stewart and the 2 similar Julies. From last Wednesday.

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I .. let it go .. let it go

but probably want to hear it again.  I was so sad.

Muusik Muuusik

Because of my sensitive hearing, I thought I heard low rapid knocks while I lay on my couch, like they were magic.  If you really loved doing music seriously, it is probably possible that this could happen to you.

Problem

Thanks, a lot, Tim Burton, I have to avoid being around my family.  You're just setting it up that way.  My mom'll randomly bring up insults from people.  Are those real??  What is your big idea, whoever is doing any of this?

What'd everyone eat?

I had a deluxe burger @ an ICE exhibition, @ a hotel, and it said you could add bacon and mushrooms.

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She might be out partying a lot!  Wonder if she'll still be there, hope she has fun.

So guys

hope Ellen is having a good holiday with mammy etc.  =]  guess we'll see after new year

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if anything is hanging around I said that offended anyone..

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So.. how'd it go?

Would you rather have a loved celeb be mean to you or not talk to you instead?

Why is..

..my name Christina?  Everyone hated me and thought I was a robot, a Chinese robot, too.

Hm

Ellen, look at those cute teens, young enough to be your kids!  I hope you learn to fit in while they're still under 16!

Where was

Ellen?  In the bushes..waiting?

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Archetypes

I got that book.  It has 12 types.  2013.  By an intellectual but nice about 55 year old lady.

Now what?

I said I wasn't ruining my brother's having kids!!  Why did you put that African American lady there and make me uncomfortable?  That's rather sick..  She was jingling the whole time.. like it's okay and I saw a couple turn the corner and she didn't do it to them!  ARGH I already said what I thought of Central Florida.  Why is Ellen acting all melancholy about stuff?  This is an example of why it's not fun to follow her, she only accepts certain people.  Why would anyone treat me this way at all?  I just had violent thoughts and knew she'd be nibbling at me, though it was really annoying.  I was worried how long it was, just to stimulate me.  What about Ellen, you're not gonna do anything to her?  I'm sick of you guys and Twitter.

STOP

What's your problem?  I can think violently if I'm being tortured.  Stop trailing me!

STOP

Quit ruining my Christmas and monitoring my language!!

Zonk

Sweet dreams Ellen and all, a new day is tomorrow.. Ellen noticed that, already.

Stop telling me I made a scene.  I didn't, you were being mean to me.

Sorry

Ellen if I was upset, but I am upset in general..  The whole town attacked me.  Even on the phone.  If you did it, why can't I be mad?

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Wow

Ellen so this is what you're used to?

STOP

How can I live?

RACIST

YOU NEVER LISTEN

STOP

YOU RED BLOODED CRIMINALS STOP MAKING FUN OF ME WHEN I'M MAD - WHY DO I HAVE TO DO THE DISHES IS THAT ALL YOU HAVE TO SAY

Wow

Go inju** yourself Tim Burton [satirically]

STOP

WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO STOP

Look

ELLEN I JUST TOLD YOU TO STOP

Problem

My mom is making annoying noises!  STOP ELLEN AND DEPP

STOP IT

I can say something and not be told to say nothing.  I just don't wanna think @ it.  I have a life that involves sleeping.

I got the message across.

Problem

Ellen, if you can't do something, then you can't do it.

Problem

Ellen, stop messing around with my little brother.  I'm the 1 who's watchin' the show, now.

IN FACT SOMEONE DO SOMETHING FIX IT  I ALREADY DON'T THINK ANYTHING JUST HAPPENED..

Guess..

..I won't be helping in the kitchen

Problem

Make Ellen suffer what she finds fun to me.

WHAT IS THIS

STOP

THEY KEEP TALKING BACK

Inconvenient and "Unintelligent" or Just Not a Good Idea??

I walked home and there was an annoying African American girl jingling her dog in a hateful way all the way home.  I think someone told her to do it in the experiment, like Ellen.  She will be mother to my age, not 10 years younger only!!  Anyway, Ellen, don't talk back, but my brother was offset ***ually because of you and his kids he's not sure of, he goes on a streak, and you all offset it cuz people are racist.  My mom blames you.  You can't do anything, you never listen, your show is painful to watch.  You would listen to someone other than me, my mom, I see..  Well, I came home and like he wanted to exchange some idea with me and we weren't like "cool" or something.  My house is not 1 of hate.  Give my brother a chance, ya'll.. Why didn't he come home happy?  A problem with the teachers?  He never listens to me.

Also, my brotehr is slicing vegetables and he wanted to slice my brains in half so I can't dream now!  YA'LL GET AWAY FROM ME I CAN DREAM IF I WANT YOU DID IT AFTER I KNEW @ A LADY WHO WAS EVEN OLDER THAN MY DAD TO SUGGEST ONLY I CAN'T ENJOY HER AND MAYBE DREAM @ HER

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Woke Up

You might think I really miss Karen Carpenter for what I got outta my dad being born in 1950, but I get more outta her dark hair and I guess eyes..  I don't know that I'd ever want my hair and eyes dark, actually.  However, I grew up most of my life with that kinda look.  I actually do like her for being in my dad's class a lot, but he has blue eyes and it's very different.  He just has a whole different kinda world provided.  It seems just as prominent.  I found.. oh I forget.  Oh, I found that I was able to understand why she died meant people could have prevented it.  I still beleive it could have been that she's really hiding like Amelia Earhart, but I mean it only makes sense for the same reason she would take her life to begin with.  Maybe, she wanted to get away from things.  I know she may have died like a martyr.  I do not really understand other than to be amazing.  I imagine that's when Jesus died, too.  It's just sad.  I do not get why just how in some ways.  Whatever is best for her, to rest in peace.  I don't really agree with it but respect her wishes.

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1/8 Irish, French, German
1/8 3rd Generation Irish-American
1/4 German, Irish, Dutch, French
1/2 Dutch-Chinese-Indonesian 6-700 years

Heritage:
Pennsylvanian+New Yorker

Hometowns:
SE-NE-SE-NE FL,
New Orleans area,
Central FL + Orlando

Height: 5'-5'3"
Hair: Brunette, Curly-Wavy
Eyes: Hazel
Skin: White

Preferred College Major:
Singing + Ballet

Other Interests:
Art

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I feel like..

..people think me singing is awkward.

What is your problem!

I sang whenever I could!  Why don't you lighten some of my load and think @ why you kicked me out?

f.y.i.

When people come up not really caring about classical music nor @ their attitude, the teachers don't like them.  I hope they don't do that to make other people look good.  I wasn't on the list of "delinquent singers.."  I only stopped ballet and singing to grow and improve my acting, which is more important.  However, I've been back since 2010.

IMDb - The Soapbox

I can sing more than most people..whoops was that mean?

Why are people trying to hit a point at me about my weakness in singing since wanting to become an actor like Johnny Depp? Other than the fact he did Sweeney Todd and didn't act it out much.. For your information, it's about quality and not quantity. What will you tell all those other people who started singing later than me? I taught myself to sing after being in choir and things. I've taken lessons, which I've been respected at very much, that was 2004. And for more information, I did sing Andrew Lloyd Webber, Les Miserables, church music too, some soft rock pop.. quite frequently judging by my homework and shyness around my parents. I also had a life and exercised! That put me ahead even more to what I am to this day. Why are there people playing around with me about this so much? What's the big idea, jealous I can just "sing" and not just sit there and try to get something technically and never go beyond what others do? As for the title of my post, I mean that you learn singing and I've gotten some booty from it. You are welcome to learn to sing as much or better.

Problem

Why are you gaping at me and suggesting I can't sing?

Stop judging me.  I didn't do anything to you.  You're the 1 who needs to learn to be nice.

Why can't I sang?  I've sang ardently well since I was 9.  I've always loved classical music.

Adults don't care @ us.

They die when we're young, too.

I feel like..

..I've grown older..

So, why does

Karen matter to older people and not younger people?

You thought this made sense..

..No, just because the generation problem exists does not mean you should die.

So..

..there's a point in living.  I thought older people took care of posterity.

Do you think..

..someone nice and famous would be selfish to die or did she suspect something?

I know now he

I know how she died.  Her metabolism was pumped way up with all the food when she was at the hospital.

She could have..

..hid from society.

We can't all just die.  I know she had an excuse.

The End of the 80s Was Marked By

Karen Carpenter  :|

When people don't show..

..you learn to underestimate them.

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I starred off 2 songs on my website.  I -really- lost my voice.  I never said I -was- a good singer..  Everyone else says that when I sing.

The funny thing is..

..I -have- always liked singing.  I wanted experience badly. I had to do also gymnastics as a kid for exercise and later on piano to learn music.

Problem

My mom always comes in and stares at me with a sarcastic grin and like cuts in after ideas like she thinks I gave in.  I am not shit!  I am just as cute as someone with a dad 10 years younger.. my mom might be young.

Problem

Ellen wants to ultimately hurt me.

So, what is it now?

Age?  Popularity?

I found..

..my voice sounds too strained.  That means I have no voice.

I only got..

..1 chance to guess how to be good and that chance has fleeted away, though technically I was not bad..

Apparently

You need to be famous for Ellen to think you are worth something..

Should I care @ my parents?

Our relationship.

My dad thinks I'm stupid if I think I don't need to be punished just for walking in the kitchen.

It's bad enough..

..Karen Carpenter died.  How am I supposed to be happy, now?

Problem

What now, did you think @ my little brother, like having a fetish, literally??  Stop telling me everything I say is wrong.  Just forget it!  I'm just talking @ something.  You did something.

If..

..Ellen felt like a kid like me is also another thing.

Problem

Stop acting all iffy as if that's not how it is.  So what if I'm still a kid?  I'm living my lost life from high school and elementary school.  :|  Why don't you just stop being mean to me!

Why..

..doesn't Ellen just get that she's older than these people on her show, these kids or young Hollywood stars?  I mean, she makes fun of people with 1950 dads born in the 1980s.  I didn't say she was my mom but that she was the right age at the time to be 1.  As for with me, I mean I wouldn't ever make fun of a kid for that.  For me it was like 12 and I was old enough to be a mom, though I still was a kid.  So, I dunno, but it just makes sense as a long time ago people were moms at that age.  So, this is just new, and I mean I just find it a joke to say otherwise cuz it'd just make me mad.  I think it would most.  What if Ellen was born in the 1980s?

Funny Things

Why does Ellen try to make me feel guilty @ what other people do?  Stop acting like I'm just a 1950 person.  Ya'll'll pay for this, obviously.  She's old enough to be my mom but instead thinks she's the cool teenager, showing off like I'm stupid and should die.

...

Well, that's mean, and I catch things like that that others do.  She seemed nice, but she just called me a nigger.  I could tell by the way my camera turned off.  How do they code that in?  You think I'm worthless because I don't know how to do something like that?  It's too bad because it's important to know about things like that and they got me upset over its usage and will just use it against me.

...

I dunno, I said what I said and I don't deserve to be punished.  I was upset and some bad words back hit, though they just popped up in my head as I lay down.  I felt so bad when my dad came in and I feel m..

I don't want Ellen to get out that I'm shit because I'm not my dad.  If she were her dad that'd mean something, wouldn't it?  You can't judge who I am by my parents.  I am not fat and I am not gay.  Nothing wrong with being fat, but you think I can't be skinnier because of my dad.  What's with all these twig girls?  You just think my fat is my dad, stop touching me!

Problems

My dad and I were going somewhere, and I got ready.  I just lay on my couch to take a quick nap.  It discouraged me from my excitement @ Karen Carpenter when he came and was like .. hello are we going .. not typical of him to do most times.

I know I got a message from Ellen when my camera turned off.. just to say I'm a nigger.  I just said something @ her that wasn't bad, like that I don't drink.

Now, my head feels empty but groggy.  My mom stopped in, too, after..  I dunnow what's wrong with my dad, he's just a fatboy.  That is to say, everyone is pushing me to him when we've had a reserved relation.  They want it to be like he's Ellen and I'm the fatty.  I dunno, don't think he needs to change and diet too much so that he's just skinny skinny.  I'm just saying, I am a propa woman, and they're like throwing pie in my face over my dad all the time.  He's not really "Fatty."  I feel like I'm up late or something.  I feel like I ate fat today, which I did.  I feel like a picture of my boy sibling.. I don't want it.  It's him like my dad!  No, I don't need my dad to justify my looks.  That's just an insult.  You didn't say something nice.  You just said he was fat now.  Go away.  You wanna "do it" with your own dad like that?  He's not to be in my life!  I had a fine life!  Well, don't be a dummy and think I won't talk to him or something, but he doesn't "have to be the 1."  What if we did this to you?  Ijust don't like it in that way.  I'm not gonna describe what way, but a way you did.

Less Stress

I don't know why that bothered me, but I thought of something.

I thought..

..Ellen admitted that the message meant something..

She is an evil monster.

She acted like she had to be mean to me.  I thought I heard my mom and it broke my singing and it turns out it was the experimenter taking her place, literally.. but Ellen doesn't know.

Sorry to Say

Ellen DeGeneres is an invalid, postpones my feeling good and lags behind.  Ha ha ha.  She'll like this joke.

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Gesu Bambino - December 21, 2013
To a Wild Rose - December 21, 2013
Let the Bright Seraphim - December 21, 2013

Question

Is it ever too old to start singing?  I've always sang and have experience and juice used up and lost.  I took a break to get healthy and work on my acting by posting online and making myself more sane but didn't get out enough.

Annoyed

All people wanna know @ is if people get mad at me to chase me away.. eventually just they would remain....

Did it..

Did the divorce inevitably do it?  Or the fact her mom would say something.. I have family like that.. Just ignore it...

The Question Everyone Asks

What was it.. :( What made Karen Carpenter hopeless and anorexic to the point of unavoidable death, some thought crept over her, but what caused it??

Must Have

Her mom must have instilled that.

Does

Karen Carpenter believe kids are bad?

What would..

..the "real" Karen Carpenter say?

Safe to Say

Since my dad is in Karen Carpenter's class and is not too too much younger but my mom's even younger mean I'm safe to say she's a big parental figure??

I never!

I never told Tim Burton he couldn't have a special relationship with his daughter like it was tabboo, but he's mean to me and not you, too.

Is there something you're not telling me?

Note

Dear Richard Carpenter,

Let's get together and do some music.

Trash Kids

Why has it been said kids today are just trash and deserve no affection from anyone in the world, really, we're just trash, our own mistake, and our parents did nothing wrong and neither did anyone else in the world??

I have decided.

Karen Carpenter's death was a selfish act.

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I just found out..

..my generation is @ like Italians, indians.. Karen Carpenter would like younger kids.

I don't think m.. helps.  I don't feel accepted as I go around, like around my dad, feel shy, not dressed, neither cuz I wanna nap and don't have money for nap clothes and wear glasses and have shaved hair.

Well

I guess Karen didn't want to be there for us.  Think @ being too submissive in life, the younger generation.  What if she was mad @ her body?  It seems as though it wasn't hers.  I am actually trying to come in tune with the situation, people thinking of her body reincarnating and all.  I am actually wasting time trying to figure out life.

Raising Souls|Seeking Ghosts

Since Karen Carpenter was killed from the hospital putting on 30 pounds in too short a period of time and she could have been brought to life on the spot, was looking good, I mean now I dunno.  She wasn't an old lady, died @ 32, no life since.  Her body may be preserved young.

In Another Way

I feel I'm acting nonchalant, like I have my roots somewhere else.

I feel myself a numbness that shouldn't be.  It's the numbness I've become.  Never do I want to redress my life of emotions until I can lay me down in safety.

Never Been Quite So Upset Inside

@ Karen Carpenter not taking a sabbatical but dieting..her killing herself or the fact she is so decidedly and reasonably dead. I'm sure we could summon her likeness.  I dunno, I watched the videos and something hit me by my recycle bin on my desktop.

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Childish

Karen Carpenter

Draining

Isn't it?

A Lost Soul

Karen Carpenter thought she had to die, too.  Like Jesus?  That used to infest my brain.

Something struck a nerve in me..

..and I dropped the last little bit of my remaining hot dog..  Karen carpenter might not be healthy as in eating enough nutrition and getting plenty of exercise.

Problem

My initial memory of thinking of Karen Carpenter literally with the word mom was thinking of my therapist saying she didn't know the carpenters.. I know something like this has happened.  Things like that don't come up..  :|

I also feel threatened for telling @ it.  I know it's because people are groggily flipping between thinking I'm not perfect and the N word incident.

Supernatural Activity or High Technology

I was walking home and felt a solid object fall down my back.  I don't know if it went down my shirt or disappeaered.  I was thinking of Karen Carpenter.

Does

Ellen like pretending I'm "in trouble?"  Cuz I'm not.  Now.

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Well

I got called back by several acting places so maybe I will get in 1 this time.

Question

Why do you keep bringing up Ginny @ my daughter?  I thought the real Ginny was different.

I want things how they were!  I can talk.  Don't threaten me, chickens.  Nothing wrong with what I said.

My Body

I want them to kill me and freeze my body for posterity.

Why..

..do people make someone who is Chinese say they are Chinese if they don't act Chinese?..

I also..

..made sure no one cared @ me dying and knew I could regenerate.. you'll find Karen Carpenter doesn't exist!

What I've Taken To

People think since she is not cremated, Karen Carpenter may be alive.  My belief is she never died.

TV

I just watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

I liked the football guy from La.  The dancing looked fun.

The Swedish girls were cute.

Ellen makes LA her home..

What do you think of..

..Ellen today?  Wasn't a baby before.  She seems a bit worn and like something's wrong with her.  Maybe, it's the shitty people in the room.  A ha a a.

A Question Keeps Coming Up

I hve to suspect they are playing around with if they do something with if I did something bad or not, and I just get upset am not mean.  Is it right?  Like, changing Twitter if I don't do something right?  I can't seem to think beyond this other than it doesn't matter.

Sick

What do you think of the spirit of thingsin 2003 if yous saw Zoey Deschanel in Elf like the feel that school didn't work out and it's about being counseled and on medication?  Can you admit anything or we won't get anywhere and I'm being threatened, and I don't care whether or not I tell you.. I just am talking @ it.

I got some other calls..

..I'm just concentrating on this, now.

I heard I have to contact the person on the sheet music to record it and pay musicians.  This extra money will let me buy more music.

A Call

I got a call to be an extra in Mordecai which is Disney as an extra with Johnny Depp!  He said hi to me on Twitter.  I will get him a gift and ask for his autograph, maybe a stuffed animal and chocolate and flowers.

O blessed day, what do I have in store herein?

Problem

Ellen, why do we care @ your well-being and you don't care if things are nicely set for me from day to day?  I mean, I didn't do anything to Ginny @ my daughter and I found a charicature of her sitting on my future daughter like she thinks I can't be a mom and now the fact this was brought up does not work for me.  I did see no one trusts her now.  I don't know how I worded it but meant no harm.  I mean, you get annoyed if I get annoyed things aren't set up just right.  I can talk @ something safely if my daughter is involved because otherwise would not work out.  Why is the air thing in my room so funny sounding?  It could hurt me.  It would hurt anyone.  Why don't you do it?

Well

Nite maybe now.. those pills made it so hard to sleep

The Point in the Matter

is Karen fasted several times but really was eating.  I think there's really more to this.

Killing Yourself

If I never went on a haywire fast and diet, I would have been able to sustain functioning in school, but it was that hard history course.  I had huge breakfasts.

So Sad

It seems Karen didn't live the life she wanted, maybe was hard to have an exciting life and focused more on her brother and music and found she liked other good things, too, like living a normal life.

Look at this.

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I know the Chinese look cute for the same reason anyone with a face and nose like that would.

Skinny

link

You know I know that she isn't bony but isn't nourished enough..  There's a certain way the body sets, and I'd know being Chinese.

Are you afraid to leave me alone? and be nice to me..

Problems

So, Karen Carpenter probably was made to feel really good being born in 1950.  She really took away a beautiful body and person from this world while other people lived on and toiled this earth.

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I also think that people with older moms or who had moms who were more older than them are mad that I like her, too.

What -do- you do about something when you like it?  I will go and post online and not think that life is reserved for the alive, my dear.. only to find I am too late to life.

What do you think @..

..like my dad not wanting other people to affect me?  I'm certainly not his.  That's not really allowed.  I know he does get involved sometimes.

Question

Why do people joke around about how I'd feel about being picked up?  I said do it to a 15-year-old, then you "won't really do it."

I told you @ a dream that came, but they don't come now.

Also, I was actually wondering @ Ellen is she annoyed @ kids, she has to heave a sigh and then she smiles?

I leave stuff..

..worried someone will chose to break into my house and kill me.. or something.. and hoping younger generations can take what they find from me and fix their life, same with older peoples..

New Videos of Me Singing

on Facebook

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TV

If I'm up in 3 hours time Imma watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," maybe set an alarm, I'm depressed.

Pestered

Why do you like not saying anything?  Ginny made me uncomfortable @ my nose, and now I think it's coming to its end.  She's not in my life.

TV

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" was really cool.

I loved the boy dancing on his crutches and doing gymnastics.  His mom cared for him very much, but he got rough and tough.  Good boy, though.

What else was there?  Oh, yes, the nice Irish guy playing Mr. Banks! from Mary Poppins.  I find him very nice in a British way.  A nice thing to notice in them.  They are shyer than Irish Americans.

People are so nervous and traditional, they wanna make sure no one gets away with being untraditional.

Since when did people care @ having finesse to others in delicate situations?

If my dad does something inappropriate that's uncool, I won't do it, too.

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I wonder if..

I wonder if Ellen knows she's not the only person who's "just human."

Children know which ^adults^ are popular..

So..

..now no one believes in doing something bad to make sure the thoughts don't get worse, like think of a word like shit and then stop thinking.

Did you ever feel no one wants you to reach a state of well-being?

Ew

Boar-like animals think you really want to physically mix with everyone.

Since I know the answer is no I'm gonna be a grump so leave me the hell alone.

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Forum Posts

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Well, sorry.

I didn't call Ellen anything outright.  Others, I was mad at my dad, but it was like as I was feeling the pain or something.  I don't do it, now.  It's too bad things ended up this crappy?

Annoying People

They all just want an excuse to be mean.

Why does Ellen DeGeneres keep insisting she's right to be mean to someone?  I didn't do anything, and she hurts me and my feelings if I'm mean.

Problems

Ellen DeGeneres is hands on and cares not for feelings- at times.  I find it rather.. disheartening.. I didn't do anything.  If someone is mean to me, I am mean back sometimes.  I never try to really hurt them.  Oh, yea, she wants me to feel guilty, and she's like oh it's too late - what is?  You made up what it is I do.  You mix the ideas and think I care about giving you guys some crazy contrapted message.

Let me get this straight.

I am pushed to be with Bethenny Frankel a talk show host, and the kids Peyton List doesn't say where in Florida she lived though Bella is shrugging me off.

Sorry

If you want an apology or something, sorry if I said anything that seemed a bit weird.

Race & Parents

Ellen isn't Chinese, so the world accepted her.  My parents seemed inhibited but not me.

Old Bone to Pick With You

I did not believe humans could live up to some robotic expectation of being "perfect" and I have beliefs that you have to curse if you find it funny when other people are on the spot, but I'll try not to lose my temper and take anger pills.

Dream

I don't remember much.  I probably had thoughs in my subconcious @ Karen Carpenter, again.. nothing wrong|funny @ that?  I remember being with my old friend in Florida.  She felt a little stimulated and a little silly.  I was like holding her in front of me, was told to or something.  I know it was like a trip.  There was probably this 1 big thing.  Maybe, it was like The Hobbit.  I don't even remember what I was like.

Nite?  Sorry @ yesterday.

Commutity Service

link - didn't look at it

It would be nice to make a habit of donating some pennies to charities, no money on my card, now..

I think I want to be there for kids in high school as they go through things, like a celebrity.

I wonder where most of the population is who are starving.  ..Africa?  It's interesting to know to donate pennies.  Why do they need our pennies?  I guess the government don't do it..

Problem

I don't care if I said my brother just got back when you made me mad and it's important.  You're not more important.  My dad gave a bad intro. and our time was *beep*

It's too stressful in Orlando.  I'm just ignoring the experimenters.

Stop acting like you have something on me.  I can curse if I want.  Just leave me alone.

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Was Upset

I said shut up at the mall food court and hey you almost touched my bag to a janitor.. they were making annoying noises.

What the Problem Is

I think you're just trying to stimulate me.

Problem

What is this, now it's not staying, what I write on Yahoo!

Problem

1 of my e-mails I was replying disappeared and they sent it to my parents.

Sorry

I guess you don't like my cursing, but once you start sometimes you die down.

This looks good.

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Check out this video of me..

..crazy eyes.

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Om ni awn yuse tey patrey
devi devi devi ti OM NIS..

STOP IT

LEAVE ME ALONE

THE THING IN OUR HOUSE HAS A PATTERN NOW - AIR THING, IT'S SWIRLING! THEY MIGHT BE DOING IT, THOUGHT IT DID IT BEFORE BUT DUNNO

Autopsy

You guys trap me say be good and you'll be okay.. you just think I'm a made abortion job.

Sorry

So, now what, why am I so stupid?  I cannot be trusted, thanks to Tim Burton and Johnny Depp.

It's like watching TV, all the tiny particles..

Another Trick?

I swear, I feel the presence of Karen Carpenter because I recognize it.  I awoke yesterday to a green light on the tip of the door I swear but I know someone put it there.

Excuse me..

..but I couldn't figure out if I should just keep quiet but is Sharon Osbourne attacking my mom?  Fine, don't play with me.

So..

..if my mom were mad at Tim Burton for me you'd hurt her?  Bo  I can talk.

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Interesting Article

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They are "barbaric" with "barriers."  I guess they like to be light but are fine as is.

I wonder if..

..any one of the people who killed Karen Carpenter realized they could go to Hell.

GO AWAY

I am me and special you can't say I'm just like everyone else.  Don't make me into shit by shitting at me all the time.

STOP

making fun of me for my emotional life

Problem

If you did it Ellen kidding around with me emotionally and messing with me in private like this then why should I have to respect you??

Problem

Now Blogger doesn't tell me if I posted with Captchas on this browser, too.  It happened on an odd day in relation to things and what I just had the right to say.

So

ELLEN ELLEN HOW CAN I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAD

HE THINKS YOU GUYS THINK I'M A NIGGER CUZ YOU'RE GERMAN *BEEP*

HOW CAN I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP I DIDN'T DO SHIT YOU WEIRDOS THAT'S WHERE YOU'RE WRONG.. YOU ALL DON'T LET ME LIVE LIKE I SHOULD I AM PERFECT HOW I AM AND I CAN THINK THAT WITHOUT BEING HHUURRTT

I have a big tossup.  I'm too weak at the moment on pills to do a lot of ballet but can work my way up.  I can't imagine doing "The Nutcracker" into January.  Acting itself doesn't hold much allure.  Singing does, but people in the business are getting older now and it's too late!  I was ready!

Something Bothering Me, AGAIN

They made the last post load slowly, but please don't miss it for a message such as this 1.

This 1 snapped up.  I think they are doing it to please the evil side.

Bad Bad Bad

Central Florida is bad.  They're just a bunch of devils in the night.  They all just complain and let it flow out.  They tell us we did something to them or the same thing they just did.  They're just babies with nothing but evil and greed under their skin.  They take out the supposed evil from other dads onto yourpow

You Weirdos

STOP IT STOP HURTING PEOPLE YOU ARE THE MEAN 1 HOW DUM CAN YOU BE NOT TO NOTICE

You know..

..if Helena Bonham Carter's thing with Nell didn't happen my dad would be fine.  '}:|  What, Helena, are you a muddled thing, person like your hubby buddy now?

In fact..

..a lot of people didn't do that.

Problem

People are all being nasty to me.  GET TIM BURTON HE DID IT.

Are you stupid enough to think that boy from England did it?  Cuz he didn't.

STOP

I don't give a damn @ Ginny nor Ellen and their superego.  See if Karen Carpenter even has that.  Maybe, everyone is just shit.

Problem

You clumsy fools can just *beep* you got my future daughter called l******.  Quit ruining my day with this crap.

These criminals won't shut up!  This is not even allowed in the U.S.  AND YOU'RE JUST SITTIN' THERE WAITIN' FOR ME TO SAY THAT

Stop bringing Ginny into my life.  She was rude to me.  She also sent me away.  She didn't say I needed a break, just found bad reasons.

My future daughter has nothing to do with any of this *beep*  Stop listening to something my Gramma like let out, that "if something comes up it must have something to do with it."  That's just there to stimulate you.  I am just saying.  There is nothing tabboo about it.  My dad also suggested this friend who won't write me and is disgusting and rude is Ellen's daughter, but she's not like her, backs away.  I can't believe she's like that, has such a nice family.  You'd have seen her on my Facebook or MySpace, but I guess you found out by me talking @ her.

I can see you just party on and GETTING WORSE AFTER YOU WERE MEAN TO ME AND I DECIDED TO WRITE ABOUT IT.  AND GUESS WHAT MY DAD LOOKED AT ME LIKE MY ONLINE STUFF WAS NOTHING, and he doesn't really care.

You think I'm mad Karen Carpenter died.  No, I talked about it, and I didn't get mad.  I just "had to accept" 1 more thing.  What's with these messages from Ginny?  Now, she's below me.  She keeps coming up with nonsense it seems.  I can hear the cars roar by and stuff, hear my family, and I know @ her.  + maybe even messages in my room.

ARGH.  You probably gonna have to call everyone else's baby a l******.  If you did for mine, why?  You clumsy!  Who "uncoded" the message?!  YOU ALL NEED TO STOP TALKING TO ME.  Everything I do people are mean to me in public.  Even if I'm not trying to talk to them.

You can't control my life if I use a curse word on my blog, and I can use it, too.

They tried talking to me, again!

If I say a curse word, they are mean to me!  If they feel like it.  I didn't even react badly @ my future daughter with Ginny.  WHO CARES IF I DO.  It's too hard to be uptight.  I don't do stuff like that.  Go losen up and mole your hole elsewhere.  I don't mean just any 1 person in general if you care.  This just isn't working out.  HEY SHUT UP I SAID WHAT I SAID YOU WEIRDO.  I DIDN'T "DO IT."  Stop the Hell talking to me.

Problem

They changed something in my life just for cursing.  Get outt amy life!

The CAPTCHAS.. now I have to see if it posted when it pauses on this browser.

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Ah, yes, if no one cursed the world would be boring.  I was surprised I said something against Ellen.  She wants to be included.

Allowed

I don't think Ellen is allowed in the South.

Problem

I got the image of my dad putting his hand on certain part.  I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE YOU *BEEPS*  What don't you get when I say something?  Quit all watching me.

Ugh!

It's so DAMN violent here.

bleh bleh blehbleh bleh

Problem

The Captcha wasn't working.

So what big guy

you gonna wait for this 1 to time out?

So what big guy

you gonna wait for this 1 to time out?

STOP IT

STOP IT

I see you're ruining my relationship with my dad.  We don't seem to have 1 and don't want a bad 1.  :|  How dumb can you be?

2 sensitive

Hm..

Just a liar who's just mean as an excuse in private.

LOOK

WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM WITH ME YOU DON'T HAVE AN ANSWER QUICKLY

You need to stop being picky because I'm always ^right^  You're gonna hurt people just living life.

Since I have nothing else to do..

..I just made a really good recording of me talking.

STOP

SOMEONE ON TWITTER IS ACTING LIKE I'M NOT WHITE, WELL I AM!  SHUT THE FUCK UP.  What else can I say?  He's like oh such and such is such.  Stop wasting my life, you know I'm whiter.

SO

You never said what you thought @ cursing when not at someone.  You can even do it to someone.  Like, Bella I thought controlled me and was racist, so I said Bella goes to Hell cuz she was acting like Ellen and still is just a kid, a *beep* kid.  Has to have a mean streak to win.

Problem is I don't wanna curse, neither.

Bad

Ellen wants us to think we're bad.

Well

Sorry, wasn't even cursing @ anyone.

Sorry to the lovely humble experimenters.

Sorry to Ellen, who I want to come in peace to.

WHY DON'T YOU CARE @ ME

YOU ACT LIKE YOU KNOW NOTHING

When Upset

I mean I just think no curse words aren't always bad.  You just say that.  I really believe that, but I don't want to curse..  I feel fed up and like this is stupid.  O MY GOOD YOU *BEEP* I WAS SO BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU YOU *BEEP* CAN'T YOU TELL THAT

STOP BEING SUGGESTIVE YOU CAN'T HOLD YOUR OWN BARF

More Jokes

I don't joke around and say something matched so I really said it and I really mean it but you have to get it.  Wow, Ellen, look at you, mad over nothing for no one.

This is stupid.

I'm remembering numbers on clocks.

I do have another problem..

..if anyone finds this funny and wants to fix this, my brother just got home.  Haven't even seen him.

O NO

My tacky mom might be home.  STOP GAPING AT ME YOU *BEEP*  What something wrong with curse words??

So

Why is Ellen thinking my dad made her do something.  Stop it before you hurt him DODO.

Well

I didn't blow up.  I just like cursing.  You know what, this whole thing is just a waste of my life.  I'm just gonna get famous however I can.  I can leave if I want.  I already have that as my goal, performing..

Wow

Look @ that Ellen thinking of me like some kind of indian being mad. NO I AM NOT MAD I AM GODDAMN PISSED AND I WASN'T CURSING BEFORE YOU CAME

Problem

Stop looking at me.  I feel like I'm being watched..  I feel I have to think @ stuff I don't want to.

I'm not in this dumb contest!  I was better off WITHOUT YOU

Problem

I don't want Ellen to do something shitty or just sorta do something that's nothing @ my future daughter.. just because of mean ole Bella.  I am not an invalid!!!! WHAT DON'T YOU FRIKKIN GET

You all

attacked me knowing I'd be a star 1 day

Why??

Because this isn't funny.. it's what she is, you can't just make it disappear.

Delinquent

:p

Problem

Treating me meanly when something important is at stake, Karen Carpenter's soul.  I just like to curse sometimes.  I didn't hurt you, you hurt me!  You really did.  And I can say what I need to say.  I just said a little.

Problem

You're making me suffer at the expense of time and wasting my life.

What Else Happened

They irritated me and I could have sat there and been tortured if I didn't do some quick thinking.  Even wild animals are overly protective @ young 1s.

Also

I don't really want to talk to them..

What It Is

These noises sound like talking.  Why don't you just go look for them if you can't stand what I write?  I thought I had a special situation, but they're just being shitty at me.. isn't that not allowed?

I feel like a fat blob while people insert shit in me all the time and I can't do anything and they watch my face like I'm CHINESE

Problem

I'm not gonna be nice to Ellen and let her toot her horn at me like that.  That really hurt my future.  I'm not going through shit with that *BEEP* *BEEP*

I know what you're doing..

..you really said something @ my future daughter.  *BEEP* ELLEN

I feel too distraught.

I don't need you for a temper.  You're the goofball.

Why is anyone so fakely fearful?  You can't save me by annoying me.  I can say what I want @ you.  You're like a kitten in a cage who won't shut up.

SHUT UP!

STOP

MORE PROBLEMS WHERE THE HELL DID THIS SHIT COME FROM

THEY SAID SOMETHING IRRITATING - STOP YOU BAD GUY @ GINNY

STOP TELLING ME I AM BAD TO SAVE YOUR SORRY ASS

Problem

STOP TALKING

They think they can torture my future daughter now.  Stop being so GODDAMN annoying.  LOL?

And no I don't give a care @ the fact I got mad when I was coincidentally talking @ if I have a future daughter.

Wale! (Well)

Looks as though I could sell my own CD.  I think I got a call.

More Shit

Why did Ellen tell you to put Ginny in my life?  She needs to open up her own academy of theater.  What did they do?  They are bothering me about a supposed daughter I have or that they want to foresee.  How?  Like pretending they are torturing her in some fantastical way.

Will you just shut up with your racism?

Stop bugging me for using words you think shouldn't be used.  It doesn't mean anything.

It might sound rude, but you're just staring at the supposed curse words..

Well..

Why don't you just bother Tim Burton in his privates? Isn't this his belief? Wasn't mine.

Problem

They keep acting show offy.

Problem

I'm being teased with noises in my room.  They made it so sound would jiggle a certain reason, so I am trying to avoid it.  I didn't do anything that bad.  I'm being poked at all the time.  My dad didn't say to do that, and I don't want him to watch me..

Ooh! Ooh! I know what it is! I know what it is!

Only Generation Z have parents who aren't born before 1940.

Aw

Ellen I wish I could sing on your show but I can't.

Why do bad people keep tagging me like I'm just bad?

New Videos of Me Singing

Facebook

What if..

..Ellen picked up a 15-year-old?  16 soon..

Problem

My mom keeps pushing insults on me, and it pushes me to the limit.  I can't seem to get her to stop watching me.

So

If Ellen is uncomfortable so has to be mean, what if there are other people in the world with the same problem?  I'd like to be famous, but I am kinda unhealthy for some reason still, maybe the pills.

What can I eat?

NO WINE

Serious Predicament

I wanted a relationship with my parents.  I feel I'm shitting for them by not moving away to Miami and they shit at me.

Caughtcha

Stop crapping on me while I'm not watching Ellen for her.  No one cares.

What was I gonna say .. oh yes, you wanna exercise bringing up the threat to the boy in England later.  I don't wanna think @ that shit!

Annoyed

They are bothering me too much again about Frozen.  They also made their 1st move as a threat against a boy in England.  Hm, might not matter but doesn't hurt to tell @ it.

They just are being overly picky to me all the time.  Stop sliding me off as a Frozen fan!  They think I "did something" when I watched it.  Well, *beep* go away.

Woo Hoo

I just called @ singing copyright music and getting accompaniment.

Now, I have to call the pet place for fish to see if they'll take my bubbling blue beta boy.  A bit worried they'll say no.  My dad said he'd want it, but I dunno.  I was gonna let it go somewhere, but it might not be happy there.  Oh no!  I missed the Wal-Mart return deadline.  I was also getting a hamster I returned.

I know..

..people are mad at privileged people in Florida who are no good to them.

Inappropriate Topics

What do you think of people who participate in talking about inappropriate things while putting you on the spot?  I think lots of things exist.  You have to have some goal in mind.  I don't like being in trouble as the only 1.  That isn't going to work.  I know what you're really saying.

Someone came up with the idea I'm talking on a blog, but this is something people chose to read and it's the opposite of what I just said.

Problem

Some people are being extremely racist.  They think that I'm a bad person, when everyone's always said I was a good person, until lately.

Good Idea

Sure, say Ellen did something for you, but if the end result is something like a type of physical-emotional pain, a new medication, and whatnot, .. then what do you do?  Say, you don't really have anyone to turn to.  And all you have is this show and your dreams, a computer, and things like that.

1 Thing's Gonna Have 2 Go

Ellen can't say that everything only come in big blocks where she wins in the end.  The answer to problems are often enough specific.  You can't just say neither yes nor no to some big, usual, concrete answer.  She may be under pressure, but we can't go along with it. I can hear her in the silence of the night as I post online and try to forget @ that.  Why does she want to be so nice but isn't in a certain way?  It kinda is harming me and my future.  Things like this always seem to work out this way.  I just kinda feel like spilling the beans.  Yes, I've been trying to find ways to lead a more active life.  I have blocks in my Disney pass during the heavy visiting.  Other things happened.  I'm stuck with being stuck.  I have to lose weight and had some troubles with recent recipes.  Our house is not packed with the tray station @ Subway with Dip'n'Dots on the side even.  I just cleaned my room and seem to get physical activity each day.  It's just not enough!  As to Ellen, I mean things can happen like that.  Hm, let me see if I've done this before, yes, but specifically.. well, what do you think @ going to choir twice a week?  I just rejoined @ the college mass.  I just feel like no one will talk to me about anything interesting.  I like the show, but it seems to get me in trouble.  I went to Lakeside and am on another pill my mom got me on.

IMDb - The Soapbox

So..

..do you think it's safe to watch Ellen DeGeneres? She does good things technically, but her emotional messages tend to be more on the suggestive side. I have found myself nowhere since watching her show.

Dissect what I actually wrote. I said I have found myself nowhere. She has put me in fits of hate by lying emotionally. What is the point in watching her like she asks, trying to prevent me from having a life or just being nice and cares only for Portia and technically maybe her biological families?

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New Photos

New Photos (Owl Thing From the Mall)

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Having Kids or Not

I would, but I think since I wanna be famous I can't, not now at least, see if things change.

How It Could Work

I could get my dad on a rapport.

Also, I got the strange image with me as the opposite of my brother that he wants to justify to me about that.

What It Was

I think people figured my dad was too testy for a young girl.  He might try to stimulate my future daughter.  I don't know if I'd leave my kids with him but would with my husband.

Problem

This wouldn't have happened if it weren't for Nell Burton.

Funny

Britney Spears has big brown eyes, and that's the "what" of her singing.  She just hides her true desires.

Problem

Everyone is getting mad at me for how they treat me, like when they are more casual and lenient with me emotionally.. they literally come back and grab at you.

Problem

I'm serious, I was thinking and hearing things like my dad wants my future daughter to like him in the exact same way I think my son will.  My son I want to have a special thing because he's a boy.  My daugther will like him and probably will be more delicate.

My Forum

It's being edited. Sadly, it deleted my past posts when I rearranged the board diagram.

1 Reason to M..

You're in a high position and lonely or you are in a low position with no one to comfort you.

Hello

To my Blogger audience, it seems that living with your earliest relatives is the only way people won't have abused you.

TV

Look at this diagram

Pay attention to Chinese and the other Asians.  China is the majority country..

link

Hurt

Someone made the page load at a bad time when I was thinking @ something.

Something Simply Weird

There's this poster on IMDb.  She is starting to make suggestions to me, making topics on the Soapbox.  I think Ellen DeGeneres told her to do that.  I think she was thinking how I posted her show was what my life was being taken by and I wanted to be famous myself and meet some people, like anyone including supposedly respectable people.  Normally, I'm onto something, but I'm onto her now.  I also have money problems.  My parents probably don't think I deserve some things.  This person seems to be annoying me racially like it's just okay, an older poster.  The other older posters aren't there to keep her in check.

Problem

My mom keeps on like ruining something big in my life these days.  They act like they have to do something bad to me all the time to test me.  Well, if everyone did that, I'd do something about it, but most people dare not accept that.

For example, my mom made my face feel messed up.  I wonder if a long time ago, everyone had something coming to them like this.  I feel a bit uncomfortable.  You know, my dad just got back from seeing his mom.  I was upset at me mom at the door to test me and was like you threw away my facial cleanser, and it's a big deal for me to go out and use my money and get more.  What should I say?  I was not feeling well, and she was being mean.

In Summary

Latinos, Middle Easterns, etc. all strive to be like Northern Europeans, so don't stop the Asians by saying they have to do all the things you do because you are already using an eraser on them.  You want Asians to be stuck.  What about the Negroids|blacks??

Most Attractive, Choice Genes

The Hispanics were operation keep Christina from being more white, but Christina is 1/2 white and they are not Northern European.  So Christina is already not acting Mongoloid, she is going for Caucasoid, whatever North European is.

I'm sure there are things @ any race that may seem overly interesting, including Asians.  It is hard for me to believe a Middle Easterner has a flat face.  I need to see more.  They must be Caucasian.  They don't look like an Asian, who is also probably a lot of the Native American indians.  So, what is it, there are indians that did not disappear who have European skulls having migrated from Europe, so are Caucasian and not Mongoloid?  Is that the kind with long noses?  Why do Eskimos like to look Korean so much?  Do some have long noses up there somewhere?  Why are they so dark, then?  Not enough comfort?

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Getting Away With Sassiness Every Time Getting Away With Sassiness Every Time

Why do people get away with things I don't even do?  I'm thinking of all the hints I have that people I know have seen presentations on the difference of skull shapes..  I thought hm I think Helena Bonham Carter has seen this because of something.. and I imagined her as usual saying, "Aw, well, it was some thing, whatever."  Well, I haven't been doing things like that, commenting that way, yet I'm in trouble for waking up each day and intending to be my bright and beautiful self, while the rest of Orlando wakes up groggy and pulled along with positivity.

More on My Mind

Tim Burton and I guess Johnny Depp think they can be mean to me cuz I kept blaming them for ruining the whole world.  I see Tim Burton thinks he said something by using an Asian in some thing he did.  He probably was being nice to Asians, but if it ends up being because of me I'll be even more mad I think, if that's possible.  That's how I lost a boyfriend..

Aw..

I got mad because Ellen found out me at home and like just sorta seemed to see it as just leaving it but really exerting a simply I found you out sorta attitude.  That's not very nice, and that's not the whole story.  I was told I complained a lot, but that was never right, see, I was just talking, when I still lived in Florida without having moved away.  I did say I didn't like the New Orleans area, just liked Florida, Pennsylvania.. probably NYC.  However, after living there, what came to me was I didn't need NYC.  I thought of it on my own.  What did you so condescendingly, you people, "find out" about me?  If I got really mad, I would imagine if I let go I'd imagine like a feeling of hitting someone.  Why pick on me like that when I didn't start it?  So, I decided to change and imagined myself shouting to go away..  Maybe, Ellen is jealous about my mom.  I just got that idea.  I figured that she wouldn't like me, to begin with.  My parents are not the same age, so I mean I kinda dislike the traits I had to keep of my dad's age because it seemed tacky and with my mom it's race, she's Chinese and tanned.

Dream

I remember at the end I was drawing the last scene, there was a white unicorn next to a pretty girl.  I WAs outlining the snout.  It was white.  I wanted to leave and m.. in the dream.  It was too serious and I wasn't doing anything.

Problem

People are acting strange @ Nell Burton, like we have to bow down to her, all of a sudden.  I'm not used to doing that.

I have an idea.

Why doesn't my mom tell me why she made her right thumbnail shorter, the pink part, significantly?  I know about Tim Burton having a daughter named Nell, and so you know she was probably named after her mom Helena.  I found people became sensitive about their nails.  Something happened to mine when left at a mental clin'c.  I also know her nails were kinda big and she used to have a long torso so seemed bigger than me, content, though I don't know what she was doing at all in that mark.  I kinda am praying her legs get longer.  I don't know what she lacks, probably friends.  She said she is returning to Indonesia when she graduates.  So, I'm happy about that.  I don't care if her nails are more motherly to me because they're big, but I saw her looking at it and getting stimulated.  Someone talked to her a long time somewhere, too, don't think I did much.  Some lady was testing me @ Ellen DeGeneres supposedly being mean.  I don't like this.  It was 1 of those 1940s guys.  What was wrong with -that lady-?  Ellen hides what she does, so I never know what she's doing.  She's not in my life other than this constant support I don't know why she gives to me like this, indirectly and a bit strangely not to her liking, .. I mean it's like she's on another planet how she thinks.  I just wanted to tell it in an interesting way, cuz I mean I dunno I forget again, probably tired.  Like, the things I do, like she might help younger kids but wouldn't help me, it seems.

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Why are..

..some people annoyed by nice people?  I just got the message I was *** for wanting to be friends with someone really weird, who I thought was playing around with me.

Hm, also acted like I wasn't nice and I should be.. ^messed up^

Question

Does Ellen believe that feeling special makes you ***?

How Blacks vs. Asians Resemble Caucasians and Mongoloids

I know Asians used to not be called Mongoloids.  Mongoloids don't want to be Asian, like indians.

Blacks have that French look I'd say, the girls.  Smart, light, thin black guys who are overly into the program you might say but perfect how they are.. I dunno that seems French, too.

Being Shy @ Skin

The world identifies dark hair and light skin as the most modest pair of features.  Middle Eastern women now cover themselves from the sun, and Hispanics bask in it.

Hispanics and Mongoloids (and Asians)

Hispanics think that dark hair is what makes them more like Mongoloids, along with tan skin.  All I could say is maybe the dark hair.  White skin is considered less racist, like black hair.  Tanned skin is colored and stimulated.  The Middle Easterners always respected this.

Problem

Ellen, I think Chloe Grace Moretz is jealous of me but does't even try to watch your show.

Taking Back "What I Did"

Well, I find some things funny, but I guess some people don't .. when mad I may forget, I may mean something, but I would take it back.  I do believe it was wrong what happened.  I just came up as a good person and that didn't cut it with Ellen DeGeneres.

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Getting Black or Blonde Hair

What do you think of minorities and like the English girls with dark hair? They think it's important to be black.

Why do black people say go ahead and be white and then they find a minority and say don't be?

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What do you think of being mixed with Native American or some Asian and being excluded from what white people are sorta friendily helped along with? People think that they aren't living this way, but they are and it hurts other white people just the same. I think everyone has it ingrained in their head that we have to be nice and understanding to African Americans, who seem shy around normal people. You all are just concerned with how 1 Asian treats another and don't care about people with both white and Asian or Native American blood fitting in and not being stopped and sorta pushed around racially without fully realizing it at the time.. Some of the mixed people of this world just look white and even people who are all Near Eastern, same with fullblood Jews.. Why would you stop someone who is successful at what they are set out to do? I don't mean whoever is reading this but who this should be said to. Isn't this kinda obvious and unspoken so far? I've heard on TV more than once that there's only 2 or 3 races, white, black, and Asian.. and they don't know where to put Middle Eastern|indian.

Cont.

She was excited @ going back but guess death took its toll on her.

Same Things

I heard Karen Carpenter got off her diet but still died.  That kinda happened to me..

I have lots in common with her.  My dad was in her class year.  Younger, however..

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Special Education

I think people like Karen Carpenter and Tim Burton are not right, they are messed up and have to get out what everyone knows.  I am not insulting but concerned.

Dark-Haired French

What do you think of Europeans with dark hair who look French as opposed to supposedly black people who act French and like the girls with the coarse hair?

Following Instructions

or just living.  I feel I've done some things I'm supposed to but am unaccepted and can't seem to live an exciting life.  I might have future goals, though, and they take a long time.  I am talking about race.

Youth Playing With People Like Toys

You can't let the youth today decide what happens to people of other races like they're toys.  They think it would fit like a salute to the Nazis to say a mixed person can just be with the race that is not of their choice just to be strict on someone to tease them.. which is wrong in and of itself, both intent and actual doing.  I mean if you think @ the situation.

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3rd Generation Irish not probably 4th

Poked At

I get poked at for trying to be comfortable in my own home.  Will I ever be treated like an innocent man?  All I want is to help people in unbelievable situations.  Well, I wanna be a singer and ballerina.  Classical singer, too..

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Old Text Box

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~ 25% Irish

~ 10% German

~ 10% French

~ 5% Dutch

•½ Chinese-Indonesian (6-700 yrs + ruled by the Dutch ~4-500 yrs?)
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•Pennsylvanian + New Yorker
•from SE-NE-SE-NE FL + New Orleans area + Central FL
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•5'1"
•~160 pounds
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•Brunette - Curly|Wavy
•Hazel Eyes
•White Skin
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TV

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" was nice.  The African-American from New Orleans seemed to have the culture down but only excluding Asians.

The boy with the speech problem was so cute, was born with a brain problem.  I guess we'll eat away at what others thought they'd get, even if some of us can't have kids..  :(*  Let's give Ellen a daughter!  She needs 1!  She can have 1!  What guy?  It'd be nice if she had the daughter when I wish I had a little sister.  She can still be like a mom to you.  I realize her daughter will be younger.  I guess I'm saying this for attention, so I mean it's for her, though.  So, that boy goes around in a hat and suit and tye.  So cute!  What else?  The Asian was cute, he talked totally American and only had like his personality looks as Asian.

"Where am I?"

You know you're safe if you're in on at least musical theater and hopefully classical singing.  You may not see it, but 1 day you will and you will believe it.

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More on Death

Growing up, I had to extinguish the constant uncomfortable feelings of assimilating oneself to Jesus, I came home in PreK thinking I'd die on the cross like Jesus.

Admitting It

I think it is admitted when the natural features of an Asian fit the ideal.

If I had to rank ladies @ my dad's age..

1- Karen Carpenter (deceased, a little older)
2- Sharon Osbourne
3- Siw Inger
4- Frenchie from Grease
5- Olivia Newton-John (older..)

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..I'm gonna record

13 Songs

Folk
1- The Ash Grove - Welsh
2- Simple Gifts - American
3- O Waly Waly - Irish

Classical|Opera (5 Songs)
4 - Fairest Isle
5 - I Attempt From Love's Sickness
6 - Die Forelle
7 - Gretchen Am Spinnrade
8 - Pres des Remparts de Seville - Carmen

Musical Theater
9 - Be Happy - The Little Prince
10 - Wouldn't it be Lovely - My Fair Lady

Pop
11 - The Tide is High https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/die-zeit-ist-reif-karaoke/id54626710 2?i=546267268
12 - Close to You

Movies
13 - Golden Afternoon - Alice in Wonderland (Original Disney Animation)

New Videos of Me Singing

1 - Close to You - December 14, 2013
2 - Close to You - December 14, 2013

So

What does Ellen think I need to fix @ how I look, or think in terms how would I need to look?  I'm sorry you see my bristly hair.  I don't wanna look like mucus.

Why do

people sort me as someone who's not cool like a Late Boomer?  Like I'm a dork that needs to be opened up?

Problem

These experimenters won't be quiet.  I was into Karen Carpenter, and I usually am into younger women, and now they are saying it's time for my aunt..

Problem

I'm tired of people treating me like an emotional + intellectual baby, sometimes.  Sometimes, you just gotta lash out.  I don't like speaking in code like they do, neither, it's not fun nor worth it..  :/

Hurt

My stomach area is still hurting from that person.  Also, from dropping my food I feel full.  I don't see why anyone would think this is here to teach me a lesson.  I just had a few strawberries earlier then went to sleep.

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New Photos of Me



I also made my Twitter and IMDb profile picture the 2nd 1.

I just feel..

..like people changed their minds and decided not to accept me as a singer.

Singing

Why do both Charlotte Church and Jackie Evancho sing so old and are sometimes so forward @ their singing?  Most people hopefully aren't, mainly young singers.  Don't you just sing and wait for people to judge you?  I don't get told I'll make it, but people tell me I have a voice like an angel, same with Charlotte Church, hmph, Jackie Evancho is in the money.  I do feel that people like them are trying to say "I'm not better" but we're essentially just different.

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Lovely Article

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Ghost

The Ghost of Karen Carpenter

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Message From Karen

I was singing "Wouldn't It Be Lovely" and at the end something, a sound, popped out in me.  It was louder, too.  It was like a little sack of string wrapped around something.

Yea, though..

..why you all encourage just people born in 1998?

Well..

What if everyone were the same?  I can't seem to catch a jingle for my generation.

What's better..

..the attention they think they deserve for what they've done.

I can't change it.

I know it's better for the teens.

So..

..why keep making fun of me for not being a teen?  I'm still a person.  I'm an adult like you.

What's all the fuss, then?..

Well

Ellen, I've had people come up to me wanting to know @ their daughters and not me.  Like, I'm not cool.  I don't mean you should just give up.  I thought things were supposed to work out.  I think it's too late for me, and I think no one really finds that befitting to me.  I will not give up anything to look like a teen..  :/  ..but I do wear junior clothes.

Let's reincantate people bringing them up from the dead.

1 - Audrey Hepburn
2 - Karen Carpenter (1949)

I'm serious.. Let's do it 1 by 1.  These 2 people didn't die a death of violence.  Sad to say, I've commited to this earth and do not know if before I would have to die would I solve anything, but it does work out.  Well, they are so chased after may they rest in peace, these people.  You know fasting makes you feel more.  I don't know @ Audrey Hepburn.  I think she was sad she didn't look as young as she aged.  She was so skinny, too!  I know if you don't eat you die!  Like, if you lead an active life and are pushed, you'd just die!  I told you I sensed magic while at school.. like the other world, but it didn't open up!  At least, we are in touch with what it means to have all of who's existed having existed.  We should look for things.  People are not meant to die.  I think science tells us this.  I've heard of it.  We have to evolve.  I always feel this sense of safety myself, but sometimes I worry and sometimes worry @ others.  I don't believe we are just science.  I don't know why we're just made of atoms.  Let's create a Karen Carpenter and from the novel "The Phantom of the Opera," with its many wonderful versions, Christine Daee.  I heard the phantom was real.  I'm into ghosts, too, and watch Ghost Adventures.  It's something to think about on the side.

TV

I just watched Thursday's "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  That younger girl than me by just a few months was so cute.  She's born in August.  I liked seeing her hug Ellen at the end.  She does singing like Bella, too, not just acting.  I was set to be a performer.  Since high school, so I'm not too late.  I see all these other people made it, where I was very interesting.

It was rather cute, they stood being cozy..  Must be weird with someone like Ellen, to be on like that, I mean it's not like you'll see her at the Oscars in the audience.  I'm glad she had such a good experience for herself.

I was gonna go watch "Ellen" but went back, retreated to my computer.

I really liked when the lady fell off dancing.

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You are a very good person like I was. I think if I compared ourselves, I'd say that you were a bit uptight, though overall it's fine.. I like some of what you learned better than what I did.

Daycare

Wouldn't it be nice to be able to be in charge of music for kids age daycare to college??

Are Jews Orangutans?

Question

What do you think @ Ellen DeGeneres being trapped by her show and things?

She seems to want to keep track of her fans.  I am trying to improve my life, but she seems to think we want to do it to give her more to think about.  I'd like to change that.  I believe in magic, and I wish the people talking to me would be talking @ that.  I used to believe I am either older or younger and that we are all equals souls in age.  We are all human children looking for our parents in heaven.  We are all peers, girls and boys, and we experience love and probably even age difference.

Happy @ Yourself

Do you think it's racial hatred to tell a person your race is better?  What if it's the same color?

Well, I'd like to know, too..

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Cat Photo Friday

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Contest

Sarah Brightman

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Height

I'm over 5'2".

Hey, look at this.

She is su .. sO cuite

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Carly Schroeder? - born 1990?

Ex er cise

I just did my core workouts.

WAH

No one really cares about me, and everyone I see keeps staring at me.

A Bit Upset

My mom was standing by me in an annoyingly and rejectedly affectionate way after getting my psychiatrist to bump my medicine intake.. and I was closing something and it just ended up spilling, the way she was moving!  All tacky!  I am not my parents!!  And I got fat cuz I couldn't have more of what I cooked and I'm onto my next recipe.  I didn't like the 1st, but it did well for me.  The next thing isn't as healthy.

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I added my age to my Twitter.

Kids With Either Older or Much Younger Parents

If my world was shit for the devilish kids of older parents who don't even appreciate them, then is it really my turn, seeing all that you gave these young kids and how much you grant wishes of older kids whatever it is they have been able to accomplish?  I do care, but it seems older kids did not accept me in my age compared to them as they were tamed to do as time came for them to follow and they've already had their own kids.  I was listening to my favorites from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and you'll notice the bells in the song for Veruca.  It was a bit tacky to me, but it sorta tells the whole story.  That age and their "young" parents from Late Boom can be described as attractive in a way that makes them ^feel good^ whereas I assume I ^feel worse^.  I will not group my self with kids with the older parents.

Cramps

I also have female cramps from that person who made it hard or weird to poo, and it feels like an unhealthy touch.  It's a forward feeling.

Interesting?

My mom upset me.  I was just wiggling outta another secret message from my dad.  She seemed to shun me like I was my dad.

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Need to Exercise

Just got my female thing and feel like resting, feel kinda irritated emotionally.  Towels drying..

These workout DVDs are pretty strenuous.  I took a walk just now, too, for like an hour or more.  I wanted that drink.

I'm guessing a little later I might to an easier exercise.

Playing With Me

People around me can feel through magic to irritate me with their touch.  Someone messed with my ability to poo okay.

Back

I went for a walk and got a drink.  I might go lie down, don't have anything to listen to, like maybe Christmas radio, though.  Or I might "play on -my- computer.."

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My Voice

I think I have my voice back but have to rest.  I mean that it's not just like a puddle.

Update

I added CAB1986OrlFL to YouTubes on my site and a page of favorite videos.

Just Watched

Renee Fleming singing "I Want an Old-Fashioned Christmas" and an interview @ the arts.  It was such an entertaining singing!  She's such a nice singer!

I just e-mailed London..

..to ask to be young Cosette since I'm around 5'.

Here's the link.

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What you think when you see her..

..Ellen, just someone who's older or someone old enough that you wanna call mommy on?  I haven't called mommy on anyone.  It's funny cuz there's a girl a year older than my dad who died from fasting too much in the end..

Oh, and me, I think mommy is born in 1940?  That makes sense.  I'm probably not really old enough.  The funny thing is that doesn't include transes of ***.

Problem

What if my parents never let me be myself and get away truly??

Problem

So, I did what I was supposed to and it ^violently^ goes to someone else.  I am having problems m..!

I mean @ my not being a true blood Southerner from parents.  Fine, then let me talk to your parents.  They were nice to me.

What I Think

If you violently want Ellen and violently hate me, you're wrong cuz it was meant to be and I do want her to meet other people to a great degree and me I mean I don't even have to know her the most, don't know if I would.  I probably get to think @ her more.  A lot of people think she's Jewish and then maybe they're better but really like her.  I just mean Ellen has a better figure, and some people are stupid enough to think well black people have a more typical human figure.  What figure do you want??  See, I caught ya!  You always like the people with the basic figures most ***ually.  Maybe, people with atypical figures are different.

Upset and M..

I know you all in general good kids with good desires as well as most others do not get told your fat Mamma is Ellen DeGeneres to you.  You all are just doing this for Nell Burton!  Saying I did something wrong to her online!  I don't belive the only people are the Lord God the Father the Almighty, Jesus Christ, Our Savior, and the Holy Spirit of God.

For stupid questions, yes, in some ways Ellen DeGeneres can resemble our parents but not in all.  She isn't us, after all..

I just took my 2nd ever anger pill and I feel so angry I wanna chop something up, I think I just chopped up myselfin my mind.  That might be why people practice self-harm, parents being too ***ual yet uninteresting.

Dear

Ellen,

Do you find generation Z, YZ, and Z+ interesting as XY?

In the Car

My mom was at me and I was talking @ singers I guess and guess I should say to those who know what I said that I feel insulted as a singer but still think you're all beautiful people who sing with the angelic voice.  Your skills are all the product of hard work overtime, and I commend you for your accomplishment in life and hope that you all become very happy.

I don't wanna be stimulated for being upset or a bit mad..

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Dessert

The fudge didn't work.  I feel like I don't wanna do anything.  I think people are just playing around with me..

Problem

I didn't like what I just made and have 1 thing left, but I was trying to close the top and felt tired from the new medicine etc. even after sleeping a lot and then it all fell on the floor.  My mom was behind|beside me moving a little specifically.  I have 1 more recipe and am not sure if I'm too happy @ it, only found 1 thing I liked a lot to make and am not very excited.  My mom said we have imitation crab, instead.  I worked hard to cut the garlic and ginger.. and was tired and hungry as I prepared my food.  It's also supposedly someone else doing it, again, interrupting me while cooking.  Someone else interruped me from getting food.

O Dear 3I

Cooking. And. Cleaning.

You know I've been on IMDb for 7 years and I'm still considered not a long poster?

Mobile

may or may not post

TV

I just watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I see she plaqued Tom Hanks to a foremost seat in the audience.  I wonder what it was for.  He seems like a cool guy to me.

The married couple were so cute.  The lady looked a lot like Vanessa Paradis and reminded me of Sarah Brightman.  She had long curly hair.  The guy was very dark black.  They'll make a great couple!  Wonder if he wants to retire now like I did, but now I'm sweeping the streets.  Oh, the girl was so fair, too, for a colored person.  I guess I'm partially colored but not a lot.  It may be a stron coloration.

What else?  Why -does- Ellen have that thing with the long arms?  I think it's cute..

It seems that she's recognizing the generation of her kids, but why would I waste my time and life.. it's true it makes older kids sad to see the baby.  But they make it so that they don't even think people my age and a bit older are like young enough to feel parental affection from them.  It's not really something that seems characterstic of me to say, but I say it outside of talking about things like people like Ellen DeGeneres.

Does anyone know how people get a plaque from Ellen as a seat in the audience?  This is the 1st time I've seen.  Johnny Depp was on with Michelle Pfeiffer and Chloe Grace Moretz.  He tattooed Ellen on his elbow pit area.  I almost think it said Ellen & Johnny.  Do people lie and have a secret desire not to be nice to kids and to feel like the kid?  Why do famous people all hold out?  I need to make my internet show.  I do wanna make money performing since that's what I do, so I am looking forward to sending in a picture by February for Pirates of the Caribbean 5.  Otherwise, I'm excited about my singing though feel a bit depressed altogether at the moment.  I don't know, maybe I need a walk.  I can afford some candy, maybe cook tomorrow.

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I edited it again.

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I edited my race.

Problem

Why do some people talk to me and wait until they make me upset and then they stop?

In the end no one'll talk to me.

More..

I can't look up someone at the top of my Facebook.  Why are you wasting my time talking to me?  I could be sleeping.

Problem

Now, my aunt has a new privacy setting with posts we share from her.

Problem

My aunts have a problem.  People won't stop being mean to me.  Also their post was at the top and it reminded me of Splash Mountain.  Quit being mean to me @ recording myself!  I don't do it to think of Ellen, actually, but you're nasty to say that.

Problem

Another stupid message from my aunts, they showed a lady who had young parents.. who seemed upset they were missing..  They come up with shit for me.  Why should we care about their schizophrenic nature?  I am not really schizophrenic.

2nd Time

I slept in for Disney..

Problem

Ellen is onto me about my 1950 dad.  Well, don't, I don't have problems!  Don't you know that?  Stop rubbing in that man like that.

Problem

Why are ya'll doing stuff for certain someone and why do I have the anger pill I already asked for that supposedly didn't exist?  STOP being nasty to me, you'll pay for this.

Problem

MY DAD WON'T STOP BEING MEAN AND THEY STARTED TO SUGGEST MY DAUGHTER WAS 1950 MOLD LIKE MY DAD'S BIRTH - I WANNA HIT SOMETHING THEY WON'T STOP THIS IS YOUR FAULT ELLEN IF NOT JUST MY DAD

Sleep

5 + space + 11 hours

Did I almost die?

I was walking around this place, a clear dream to remember, the 3rd big block of sleep.  It was like a big "hall" like an extended reunion.  It was huge, though.  It had weird dream things.  1 person went to a certain place and the humungus giant got him and ate him.  We were all still there.  These round animals colorful slid down something cuz he would not eat them.  I was invited to come out and I hopped about as I seem to do.  I didn't actually eat anything but was ecstatic @ dessert being made.  A girl around my age somewhere was mixing chocolate chip cookie dough.  I remember I had 2 big pills, too, and in real life I was supposed to get an extra small 1.  I had the idea it'd be green like my clear contacts are now.  I finally was so scared I was in some trees but wanted to come out maybe.  Then someone came in and picked me up a few times and put me down.  I liked when the person was walking like a recording I did and sorta guided me with her arms holding me.  I felt it was like my mom's hair, shorter then I guess lying down, maybe just her hair in a bed.

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I fixed links on the side.

Mad?

I didn't get whole-heartedly mad at the standard Ellen DeGeneres.  I just didn't like the hurt.  I tried to ignore it but wanted to post it online.  It came off differently.  Maybe, I was upset, though.

What I Found There

I found that people just had a brief hunger for naughty friends's babies.