Look at this diagram

Pay attention to Chinese and the other Asians.  China is the majority country..

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Hurt

Someone made the page load at a bad time when I was thinking @ something.

Something Simply Weird

There's this poster on IMDb.  She is starting to make suggestions to me, making topics on the Soapbox.  I think Ellen DeGeneres told her to do that.  I think she was thinking how I posted her show was what my life was being taken by and I wanted to be famous myself and meet some people, like anyone including supposedly respectable people.  Normally, I'm onto something, but I'm onto her now.  I also have money problems.  My parents probably don't think I deserve some things.  This person seems to be annoying me racially like it's just okay, an older poster.  The other older posters aren't there to keep her in check.

Problem

My mom keeps on like ruining something big in my life these days.  They act like they have to do something bad to me all the time to test me.  Well, if everyone did that, I'd do something about it, but most people dare not accept that.

For example, my mom made my face feel messed up.  I wonder if a long time ago, everyone had something coming to them like this.  I feel a bit uncomfortable.  You know, my dad just got back from seeing his mom.  I was upset at me mom at the door to test me and was like you threw away my facial cleanser, and it's a big deal for me to go out and use my money and get more.  What should I say?  I was not feeling well, and she was being mean.

In Summary

Latinos, Middle Easterns, etc. all strive to be like Northern Europeans, so don't stop the Asians by saying they have to do all the things you do because you are already using an eraser on them.  You want Asians to be stuck.  What about the Negroids|blacks??

Most Attractive, Choice Genes

The Hispanics were operation keep Christina from being more white, but Christina is 1/2 white and they are not Northern European.  So Christina is already not acting Mongoloid, she is going for Caucasoid, whatever North European is.

I'm sure there are things @ any race that may seem overly interesting, including Asians.  It is hard for me to believe a Middle Easterner has a flat face.  I need to see more.  They must be Caucasian.  They don't look like an Asian, who is also probably a lot of the Native American indians.  So, what is it, there are indians that did not disappear who have European skulls having migrated from Europe, so are Caucasian and not Mongoloid?  Is that the kind with long noses?  Why do Eskimos like to look Korean so much?  Do some have long noses up there somewhere?  Why are they so dark, then?  Not enough comfort?

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Getting Away With Sassiness Every Time Getting Away With Sassiness Every Time

Why do people get away with things I don't even do?  I'm thinking of all the hints I have that people I know have seen presentations on the difference of skull shapes..  I thought hm I think Helena Bonham Carter has seen this because of something.. and I imagined her as usual saying, "Aw, well, it was some thing, whatever."  Well, I haven't been doing things like that, commenting that way, yet I'm in trouble for waking up each day and intending to be my bright and beautiful self, while the rest of Orlando wakes up groggy and pulled along with positivity.

More on My Mind

Tim Burton and I guess Johnny Depp think they can be mean to me cuz I kept blaming them for ruining the whole world.  I see Tim Burton thinks he said something by using an Asian in some thing he did.  He probably was being nice to Asians, but if it ends up being because of me I'll be even more mad I think, if that's possible.  That's how I lost a boyfriend..

Aw..

I got mad because Ellen found out me at home and like just sorta seemed to see it as just leaving it but really exerting a simply I found you out sorta attitude.  That's not very nice, and that's not the whole story.  I was told I complained a lot, but that was never right, see, I was just talking, when I still lived in Florida without having moved away.  I did say I didn't like the New Orleans area, just liked Florida, Pennsylvania.. probably NYC.  However, after living there, what came to me was I didn't need NYC.  I thought of it on my own.  What did you so condescendingly, you people, "find out" about me?  If I got really mad, I would imagine if I let go I'd imagine like a feeling of hitting someone.  Why pick on me like that when I didn't start it?  So, I decided to change and imagined myself shouting to go away..  Maybe, Ellen is jealous about my mom.  I just got that idea.  I figured that she wouldn't like me, to begin with.  My parents are not the same age, so I mean I kinda dislike the traits I had to keep of my dad's age because it seemed tacky and with my mom it's race, she's Chinese and tanned.

Dream

I remember at the end I was drawing the last scene, there was a white unicorn next to a pretty girl.  I WAs outlining the snout.  It was white.  I wanted to leave and m.. in the dream.  It was too serious and I wasn't doing anything.

Problem

People are acting strange @ Nell Burton, like we have to bow down to her, all of a sudden.  I'm not used to doing that.

I have an idea.

Why doesn't my mom tell me why she made her right thumbnail shorter, the pink part, significantly?  I know about Tim Burton having a daughter named Nell, and so you know she was probably named after her mom Helena.  I found people became sensitive about their nails.  Something happened to mine when left at a mental clin'c.  I also know her nails were kinda big and she used to have a long torso so seemed bigger than me, content, though I don't know what she was doing at all in that mark.  I kinda am praying her legs get longer.  I don't know what she lacks, probably friends.  She said she is returning to Indonesia when she graduates.  So, I'm happy about that.  I don't care if her nails are more motherly to me because they're big, but I saw her looking at it and getting stimulated.  Someone talked to her a long time somewhere, too, don't think I did much.  Some lady was testing me @ Ellen DeGeneres supposedly being mean.  I don't like this.  It was 1 of those 1940s guys.  What was wrong with -that lady-?  Ellen hides what she does, so I never know what she's doing.  She's not in my life other than this constant support I don't know why she gives to me like this, indirectly and a bit strangely not to her liking, .. I mean it's like she's on another planet how she thinks.  I just wanted to tell it in an interesting way, cuz I mean I dunno I forget again, probably tired.  Like, the things I do, like she might help younger kids but wouldn't help me, it seems.

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New Photo of Me

Why are..

..some people annoyed by nice people?  I just got the message I was *** for wanting to be friends with someone really weird, who I thought was playing around with me.

Hm, also acted like I wasn't nice and I should be.. ^messed up^

Question

Does Ellen believe that feeling special makes you ***?

How Blacks vs. Asians Resemble Caucasians and Mongoloids

I know Asians used to not be called Mongoloids.  Mongoloids don't want to be Asian, like indians.

Blacks have that French look I'd say, the girls.  Smart, light, thin black guys who are overly into the program you might say but perfect how they are.. I dunno that seems French, too.

Being Shy @ Skin

The world identifies dark hair and light skin as the most modest pair of features.  Middle Eastern women now cover themselves from the sun, and Hispanics bask in it.

Hispanics and Mongoloids (and Asians)

Hispanics think that dark hair is what makes them more like Mongoloids, along with tan skin.  All I could say is maybe the dark hair.  White skin is considered less racist, like black hair.  Tanned skin is colored and stimulated.  The Middle Easterners always respected this.

Problem

Ellen, I think Chloe Grace Moretz is jealous of me but does't even try to watch your show.

Taking Back "What I Did"

Well, I find some things funny, but I guess some people don't .. when mad I may forget, I may mean something, but I would take it back.  I do believe it was wrong what happened.  I just came up as a good person and that didn't cut it with Ellen DeGeneres.

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Getting Black or Blonde Hair

What do you think of minorities and like the English girls with dark hair? They think it's important to be black.

Why do black people say go ahead and be white and then they find a minority and say don't be?

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What do you think of being mixed with Native American or some Asian and being excluded from what white people are sorta friendily helped along with? People think that they aren't living this way, but they are and it hurts other white people just the same. I think everyone has it ingrained in their head that we have to be nice and understanding to African Americans, who seem shy around normal people. You all are just concerned with how 1 Asian treats another and don't care about people with both white and Asian or Native American blood fitting in and not being stopped and sorta pushed around racially without fully realizing it at the time.. Some of the mixed people of this world just look white and even people who are all Near Eastern, same with fullblood Jews.. Why would you stop someone who is successful at what they are set out to do? I don't mean whoever is reading this but who this should be said to. Isn't this kinda obvious and unspoken so far? I've heard on TV more than once that there's only 2 or 3 races, white, black, and Asian.. and they don't know where to put Middle Eastern|indian.

Cont.

She was excited @ going back but guess death took its toll on her.

Same Things

I heard Karen Carpenter got off her diet but still died.  That kinda happened to me..

I have lots in common with her.  My dad was in her class year.  Younger, however..

New Video of Me Singing

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Special Education

I think people like Karen Carpenter and Tim Burton are not right, they are messed up and have to get out what everyone knows.  I am not insulting but concerned.

Dark-Haired French

What do you think of Europeans with dark hair who look French as opposed to supposedly black people who act French and like the girls with the coarse hair?

Following Instructions

or just living.  I feel I've done some things I'm supposed to but am unaccepted and can't seem to live an exciting life.  I might have future goals, though, and they take a long time.  I am talking about race.

Youth Playing With People Like Toys

You can't let the youth today decide what happens to people of other races like they're toys.  They think it would fit like a salute to the Nazis to say a mixed person can just be with the race that is not of their choice just to be strict on someone to tease them.. which is wrong in and of itself, both intent and actual doing.  I mean if you think @ the situation.

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3rd Generation Irish not probably 4th

Poked At

I get poked at for trying to be comfortable in my own home.  Will I ever be treated like an innocent man?  All I want is to help people in unbelievable situations.  Well, I wanna be a singer and ballerina.  Classical singer, too..

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~ 25% Irish

~ 10% German

~ 10% French

~ 5% Dutch

•½ Chinese-Indonesian (6-700 yrs + ruled by the Dutch ~4-500 yrs?)
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•Pennsylvanian + New Yorker
•from SE-NE-SE-NE FL + New Orleans area + Central FL
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•5'1"
•~160 pounds
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•Brunette - Curly|Wavy
•Hazel Eyes
•White Skin
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TV

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" was nice.  The African-American from New Orleans seemed to have the culture down but only excluding Asians.

The boy with the speech problem was so cute, was born with a brain problem.  I guess we'll eat away at what others thought they'd get, even if some of us can't have kids..  :(*  Let's give Ellen a daughter!  She needs 1!  She can have 1!  What guy?  It'd be nice if she had the daughter when I wish I had a little sister.  She can still be like a mom to you.  I realize her daughter will be younger.  I guess I'm saying this for attention, so I mean it's for her, though.  So, that boy goes around in a hat and suit and tye.  So cute!  What else?  The Asian was cute, he talked totally American and only had like his personality looks as Asian.

"Where am I?"

You know you're safe if you're in on at least musical theater and hopefully classical singing.  You may not see it, but 1 day you will and you will believe it.

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